unspoken

there's so many things really.
and i cant even bring myself to say them honestly.


there's this whole whats right whats wrong thing.
and im so stifled by it i'm half an inch away from just screwing the whole thing.
everytime i hold my tongue. everytime my hand pulls back.
i feel like i did the right thing.


the socially right thing.
and a part of my heart, hidden from view, dies some more.
the question is, how about cai?