how now brown cow

its gotta be said that the months of august to october were good.

november however is a different story.
its not even massive things, but little little things have accumulated to make me the miserable human being i am now.
this is hardly an angsty, emo post, which i am not.

lets start with the most pertinent problem.
i bit myself twice on the same spot on my cheek in one day.
now theres a fucking big hole. an ulcer, and a constant dosage of pain injections every day. smiling is pain, talking is pain, sneezing is pain. u know the drill.
today, i havent had any food to eat at all. a glass of water and ice lemon tea in school. and im not hungry cos the process of eating hurts.

so if im not cheerful happy retarded blhblahblah, u know why.

you're gonna say im bitchy and whiny, by hey. after im a cheapo neh neh. u can call me anything u like. im gonna grow up. be a rich banker, and continue being a cheapo nehneh.

this sem was trudging along really fine. no disasters, until the first week of november when i submitted EVERY ASSIGNMENT on the deadline. thats gotta be a bad sign. personally, IA assignment i spent 10 hours straight doing this morning till 6 am and the history paper is gonna seriously affect my grade. but well grades are just grades, but my working style here is not doing me any favours.

and lastly, you. hardly a problem, hardly a solution. but yeah its good getting a call from you once in awhile. im still scared shitless of making the first call. i dont know why.