sorry i stress

i'm blogging about dota.
and some reference to real life.


had a good game yesterday. won all 3 of my games even though i was really tired. 3 hours of sleep after talking to cheryl whilst the sun rose was really good, other than the fact that finding toh tuck road was a real paain. haha. thanks jh for the map hunt.

so anyway somehow i wasnt too nice to my team mates sitting besides me, kinda barking at them to do this and do that. greg timely gave me a slap by saying "cai recently u damn stress"

on like 0.00000273 seconds worth of reflection, i kinda figured it is pretty true. i'm not stressed, i'm just on tenterhooks. everything is tense and tight and margins are small. and somemore i particularly dislike losing. more than usual so it all clumps together into one big hairball.

i guess more coffee and smokes will cool me down. but considering i really havent touched a smoke this week despite some severe social pangs. i think i'm trying. luckily mark and john are fighting it too so i have company. coffee is good but im really poor this month thanks to ahem driving lessons. JUNE COME QUICK.

so yah. gotta chill abit. and find a damn job. later mates.