thoughts and feelings

this weekend is gonna fly by in a whirl. its already saturday evening.!!
sheesh...tmr i wake up and its sunday... neway. cdf stands for chief of defence force caame to visit us on friday. where all the wayang and stuff were prepared for his arrival. prosperous would describe his belly. studious is how you'd describe his face. probably met more outstanding personnel in my 2 year tour in the army. but he has my respect for being a scholar i guess. must be a clever man.... least he's got a sense of humour.
wednesday is the training. thursday is my dental FFI. which is funny cos why'd they have to certify my teeth when im leaving the army?. thought the uni's would wanna do that. and fridays intelligence dining in. really dont wanna go but i gotta waste 85 bucks to. stupid right.. leave it for the regulars better. only good point is i can wear my new zara shoes which has been sitting around for awhile.
work aside, things have been going smoothly. to a certain extent. havent seen my parents and sis for the whole week and doubt i will. they'd go sebana and sis would go adrians house. sad.
it really sucks to have shu, lim go canada, mama to disappear completely, and the rest barely keen on going siglap. its like the parks so near but the children dont wanna go.
shauns celebration was fun... i think he was happy. sadako decided to visit.. i shall ask ian for the photo. abit blur tho.... shaun had a piece of chocolate cheesecake force fed into his mouth by me.
dirtied his super plain white shirt so he'd wear the topman one we just bought him. how on earth would anyone wear so shabbily for a date i dont know...a movie date at that. then we chatted and chatted. attendance: gabe isaac terence(idunnohim) greg ian jh shaun heather(his date) vicky eileen and our dear zhiguang.
visited ian's house for the night for the first time..nobad...quite nice i must say.... like the bedsheets.. same as mine.
youknow how they say you'd really hate to grow up, and live in reality. corporate life and all that? at this moment i really beg to differ. i really find nothing greater than pursuing my lifes dreams. i know the process wont be like smooth and all. but i really wanna start living independantly. job sounds lemming like. but i know i can do better. we'll see about that. family sounds great. hands full with making those i care about happy. and some spare time to keep myself happy too. i wanna chase all these things. im sick of being carefree. i need a greater purpose. im growing up a tad too slowly. im not old enough to even be a good boyfriend to anyone. not that the girls my age are ready (in my opinion). but the progress is really too slow. luckily we all know change is progressive and i hope over the past few years i've moved the right stones for my path ahead. i wont know. its the people around me who observe the evolution. and now i wish they'd tell me. i blog, i play tennis, soccer, lan. these things keep me happy NOW. but in the process of this i dont wanna neglect things of higher importance further down in life. so how about LATER?. the truth is. later never comes. its only whether you're prepared for it now.
lost?. good for you. cos i thought that was quite useful.

type until im enlightened. brilliant. gonna hit some weights. dont want me to be the skinny llama do you?