random thoughts

i think education is generally a good thing.
but i dont think im gonna use it entensively in everyday life.
my biggest take away from education is the ability to think.
in order to solve a certain situation, a certain fixed strategy should work.

i've made an observation when people make decisions or actions based on these actions which have been pre-programmed and have proven to work in the past, they have an inner peace and confidence about the process. even if it had no impact on the outcome, people still find solace in making the right decisions.
i think i've done that more than once.

its just one of those nights i can out-think out-analyse out-evaluate


anyway, with regards to many many many things in life which i do have figured out. i think the most important on of them all, is to let go. purposefully letting go of the outcome. just going with the flow. thinking less, feeling life and not feeling external strsses and emotions. because of constraints required by society, i do what i must. if i were born in antiquity, i'd tend my farm, if i were born in 1800, i'd operate machines. since im in 2007, i play my role as pseudo capitalist. same reason. to put food on the table first. then we talk about the finer things in life.

as i drift in and out of consciousness instead of study, i know what i want. right or wrong never mind. in fact i know some of them are wrong. but let it be known to all. that life isnt like PSLE. always getting everything right. its about answering the questions in your heart. fulfilling the things which intrigue and confound. understanding the surroundings has been done by scientists for a century or so. but how about understanding oneself? im a unique sentient being. if i dont find out my idiosyncracies, who will? my experiences and education may have shaped what kind of person i am. but when u come down to the very core of it, the other parts of me which are different and jut out like a sore thumb from others are places filled with grey waiting for me to explore. within oneself. perhaps this is the life worth living. living it for oneself. filling the gaps which exist within oneself. i think what i am saying is making choices based on a inner peace and strength drawn from a place found deep inside myself. some people derive strength from god. and perhaps god lives within me. and if i dig deep enough, i will find it. and to be very honest. i think im right=]

i wonder if descartes thought about it in the same context as i did.
but you are right. mr René Descartes,

i think, therefore i am.