after some pink photoshopping.

Wyoming on a whim

http://wayangparty.com/?p=6191



if i wrote a suicide note, it wont be very different from this.
can u tell how clear his thought processes are?
you almost feel he's not depressed.


cos he's not.
he's driven into a corner. like cat sealing up all the exits and waiting outside the last one.


before i take sides, lets look at his situation simply.
hates his job, his bond.
offers to find a resolution(an assumption he would make based on his intellect).
govt says no. because it'll create a mess if everyone is allowed to do so.
leaves the country. feels like a fugitive. govt is puzzled more than anything.


so why do i say driven into a corner? because of someone born and raised in singapore, he has to conform. small social circles. general path of education. our ascendency to greatness or mediocrity is very narrow. its not like any of us can move to Wyoming on a whim. how would mother father see me. how would friends feel? the failure/escapist. being a doctor, a regular on singapore tatler(a tight social circle) could only make it worse.
simply put.
1. cannot take the work/bond
2. govt gives him no choice/does not know(cant possibly check)the depth of his anguish.
3.no choice. no.1 is too painful to bear.
4.ends his life


from the govt's perspective. they cant do much either. i mean. if everyone wants to
leave and sends an application in, do you send them for pysch analysis?

if he leaves to australia and AWOLs, do u hunt him down and let him see a shrink?

should they make the bond easier to break? its not supposed to be easy to break.

maybe they can make the SAF doctors life more exciting. this is the first time i've heard a whiff of such discontent. but usually the noble profession has applicants willing to help the cause in any way or form. perhaps his slightly more ambitious nature and competitive streak made it hard to settle for less.
ask yourself, one doc kills himself, we go berserk. Millions are dying in impoverished zones now. and you think the quality of life of one doctor is an issue?
in the places where real help is needed, less than 1% of the current media/public interest happens.

this is one case of which is quite unlikely to be repeated. i mean, most people wouldve just settled in australia and not looked back. to end it right there is drastic and shows his attachment to our "save face" society. I mean. nothing wrong with just staying there forever innit. 28 isnt late by any measure.

dont bother looking for the right or wrong. its pretty grey and we could talk on days on end. but if you want a simple summary to my point,

its that when there's a problem to be fixed, it'll be so clear cut you wont have to debate on the cause. but look worldwide, they still arent getting fixed. so we could go on with this inane discussion, but we'll be frogs in a well.

twas a good week.

a very nasty start. but it picked up.
the only way i knew how to save the week was to keep my head up, keep doing what i do best.

fridays here, and i can see the light. woo..




something which im so certain about now.
its the nicer something looks. the more flaws it has.
while this is not true for everything. but to those who know. know.

are you happy now?

women, being women, always wished they meant something in the relationship when it unceremoniously has to end.


i always had problems conveying to them that they did. more than any one of them will ever know.


each time one bit the dust, i got more damaged.

and now i'm damaged. i cant even do it right anymore. thanks.

ml jc and wlh

*michelle. says:
his songs are quite meaningful
*michelle. says:
though sometimes i don't understand what he's saying



lol.

is happily watching citigroup stock do its thing.


penny penny penny stock.

transiting

i dont know what to say.