maroon 5

I asked her to stay
But she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say (Oh-oh)
The words that would mend
The things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe it

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make you right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

here and now in large amounts.

wow.
how things turn.
from bad to good.
had a horrendoud bout of flu on sat night. sorry to zc i couldnt go to zouk.
miserable sunday.

it started with soccer. i couldnt breathe. but i could chip, pass, lob and shimmy.
throw in one goal by rounding the keeper. fuck the fact i got studs on my shin and bled like fuck.
but after dinner with mich at hk cafe. with a super power lemon honey drink.
some serious medication, i felt tonnes better. after the man utd match which went well if u support man utd, i slept early and rested peacefully for one night.

today, class was good, i stayed awake. absorbed. cheryl's emo morning was bordering on insanity. hilarious. and save for the lack of company sometimes, it was good. parents came home so i had people to talk to for once. played tennis and it didnt rain. score? 6-0 6-0 6-0. i didnt get broken and won 18 straight games. lost count of the number of aces and clean winners i hit. shit. i wanna get some tennis lessons. and get even better. err.

with that. my day is much better. im happier. the skies are as gloomy, but my lenses are rose tinted. oh btw.

did i say meeting sin hui and andy tmr in class is a major boost? the thought of it is. 3 cheers for wacky classmates dalam kela bahasa indonesia.

sampai nanti dudes.

approaching the 1000th post.

hello.

going to malaysia for the next two days.
hopefully i get some serious seafood in. bringing work though. sadly.

I've had it. on many counts. this is growing up.
having it with people and things.

i need to do more work for CP.

a mini-phany

as i lay on my couch, preparing myself to hit the button to switch on my tv programme. i paused. and i closed my eyes.

right there. i felt the physical mental and emotional drain. it was truly a tiredness of the complete kind. the kind which exists for a short moment in your life. and that moment makes everything pale in comparison.

and i realize. i am stretched. like muscles which get stronger. lungs which pump harder. brain which captures the essence of the context and nothing else.
clarity. a fatigue induced temporary high.

and im difficult to beat once again.

.

with so much going wrong.

it'll be great for me to look at whats going right in life right now.


1. relationship with dad is markedly better.
2. relationship with sis isnt getting worse.
3. i know what i want for the next 5 years.


times like these i look to God and say. i'm yours.

a realisation

after 4 years of blogging.

i finally have a post which i wish i could lock up.



reflecttcelfer

alright- i guess

just when i said it. my luck with money was good. guess what-
i forgot to bring my wallet to school. anybody ever borrowed money from econ minimart? i just did. to take bus to school.


this sems a little warmer than the last. but its not much better.
my timetable seems to be different from everyone else. and next sem wont be any different.

dont really feel this sems gonna be great academically. but its good cos when i feel good about it its backfired on me before. still fucking sore about my OE.
good luck to me. woo.

Luck

uknow i've posted much about luck.
so here's another one.

my friend taking IFM with me casually mentioned.
i damn suay. cos i got food poisioning now.
not long ago i had the rashes problem.
not too long ago i had the catfish bite as well.
remembering my first night at kr when liquids were exiting 2 orifices at the same time, i think my luck with health really isnt good.


but on the other hand my luck with money is still solid.
won another 70 bucks at zhiweis house hence it sponsored my new pair of boots.
hope it doesnt break my ankle again otherwise even more suay

what goes around, comes around.

how did it fall apart so fast?

BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM.


my night turned just like that. in a space of 5 mins. FUCK. im gonna sleep. FUCK.

meow and woofs

just a random thought.


if you managed to wake up today and say "gotta accomplish all my goals today".
yours goals are definitely important.

damn weather. first thing i did was curl up and curse.

cyanide.

gold rush

it was really a crazy sunday night.
rushing reports. squeezing in time to study for my test.
cooking roast pork to feed myself. siobhan sending me some much needed ginger tea.
the ginger tea didnt do much la. but the thought really went alot further cos i was coaching/giving a lesson and my nose was falling off at the same time.
was pushed very hard and far.
a short phone call. to mandy. like super thanks to her. i sensed she dropped everything and just gave me some time to unload. how sweet.
nice chat with erwin during the course of the day in school.
a nice long/crowded/busy mrt ride back to bedok with manda who waited 45 mins for me. and had fun with me on the way back too.


illness and work comes and goes.
but with ppl like bun,mandy,erwin and manda around.
there's hope that not everything will be as fleeting.
this is a post for those who believe that people dont always leave.