ironclad will.

todays like the only time i went back to camp since i started clearing leave. amazing how everyone just leaves you alone. like work isnt remotely any part of you anymore. i didnt even have to walk in!! one of the drivers recognized me.

driver: sir you going smi?
cai: yes!
driver: okay la sir i fetch you.
cai: steady.

and thats such a great example why being an officer is great. you get to know all these people from MT line. he's like covered his whole body in tattoo art man. but this guy was cool enough to give me a ride. god bless the guy.

somehow i lost my clearance form. so i had to re collect all the signatures again. if u remember, the last time i was short of 6 signatures. starting from scratch was a bitch. lucky all the people were in camp today. now im left with 3 more for friday. couldnt do it until the actual ORD day.
daryl got his today. lucky boy.
another chapter of my life's closed. as time progresses the memories will fade and fade till its just remembrance of its existance. just like every other thing in the past.

will be busy for the next few days prior to friday. will try to post abit more before i fly to hk.
meanwhile, it'll be nice for more people to tag. or like shulin! shes the only cool person commenting on the pictures. haha. she and i. playing with balls yesterday.=p
kidding eh shu.=]

wed and thurs is like. coaching day. so wish me and my sailors luck for the regatta. not expecting much. just quantum leap in sailing performance thats all. =].
oh by the WAY. i brought greg out ONCE. and he's like gushing over this michelle already. wahlaoeh. this guy ah. the man lah really.
speaking of which, there's this islandwide phenomenon where guys around me have preference for females younger than them. WHY?. 17 years old?. 18 years old?. dude man. just not me.
i gotta learn to understand why man.

anyhow, had alot of tennis and soccer lately.
my legs are breaking. and my left shoulder is barely holding up. heal boy HEAL.
love you loads. ciao

BIOLOGY. PSYCHOLOGY. PHYSIOLOGY. THERAPY.

current music: hope - twista feat faith evans.

from a social perspective, yesterday must have been great.
took greg out on the powerboat. and got reacquainted with much of the sailing community we did. fenghang even showed up. our famous flyboy. check out greg's burn marks on his face arms and legs man. CLASSIC. isleptwithsanta.blogspot.com.
met justin kiat mich and shulin for dinner at bedok 85. BAKCHORMEE and stingray.mmmm.
then we headed to coffee club for more drinks. =] good stuff, catching up with people. makes u feel like your time spent was worthwhile. some friends u dont wanna lose do you??.
greg and jianhong appeared later, and they came to my house. haha had a blast seriously. me and jianhong chatting with grace simultaneously sitting next to each other way gay. and greg was just nursing his sorry sunburn marks. ha!. LOBSTERBOYY.
i cooked supper for them. it wasnt anything spectacular. but come on jh and greg. when u read this. gimme some credit aye. anything fast and tasty at 12 midnight can always visit me. speaking of which, i gotta clean up the dishes after this post..haiii....
lazy to cook already. so im gonna wait this torrential rain out. and cycle down to east coast to buy. can possibly cook everyday. poor mom. bought so much food for me and im not cooking. sorry mom. i like to buy sometimes too!. cant cook as well as you. and speaking of which. my mom's cooking is seriously the BEST.
nowadays, she doesnt have to put in any effort and she can whip up something good to make anybody drool. heh.


on a lousier note. i dislocated my left shoulder again when demonstrating to edgar how to gybe in strong wind. humbug. now my left shoulder is really sore. had to physically pop it back in. so ouch. stupid terence lah. all his fault for making me dislocate it a few years back.

thats me. i look like some sports enthusiast right??. just done with a days work on the water. this photo was taken with FLASH.=] courtesy of jie jie.  

quick one,=]

i gotta run of for work soon. got really little sleep but i think i can live with that.
saw some interesting people over e week. xiaxue or wendy for one. and daryl lim for another. hope he recovers fast. im such an asshole. i already have no money, and i still want that nautica shirt. so i "held" it. hahaha. celever right. shaun returned me my 300. so thank god almost alls fine now. okay gotta rush. i hope you people have a good weekend.

need some feedback whether u guys and girls prefer more photos or more alphabets.
cheers!

tired. dont disturb.=] 

point the hand where you wanna hit. hey cai, how many left hands u want? are u alien??? 

picture of concentration. 

that ones a clean winner im telling you, just u watch.. 

BEWARE THE FLYING GREEN MONSTERS!! 

mr handsome giving us the peace out. 

some tennis shots........... 

my Blue Bed. haha just to balance things out. 

since we're on the topic of redd........... 

this kinda also float my boat.=]=] 

red, stringed, ahhh..bliss. 

i like red things with strings on em.=] 

not in the mood he says???

okay im gonna compare myself to the nikon coolpix 4600 i just bought.
im lazy so i'll just give you the similarities in adjectives.

small.
lopsided.
value for money. (as opposed to cheap)
any battery would do.
aesthetically weak.
practical.
extended 256MB memory.
found in a small corner.
gives you many shots.
can withstand a few knocks here and there.
if you look at whats inside for the first time,
you dont understand very much.

lumblings of a banana caramba

thats the most brilliant title i could come up with.
haha not exactly in the blogging mood aka sharing mood.
just some stuff i did today yea? pretty much the same old boring stuff.

started the day with my bank balance in the 4 digits. (now you think...SHOWOFF!)
k lah im less well off than some.
ended the day with 2 digits. and on the wrong side of 50 to boot. ha.

coolpix4600 from peninsula will replace my trusty lumix camera.
the rest went into funding my hongkong trip.

at the last chapter of spam kings at borders. AND I GOT TO SIT ON THE COUCH FOR THE FIRST TIME. WOOHOOOO!!. okay chill. himbo some would say. saw shan from eye for a guy two. tall dude. shant comment much except when jh saw him he said some nasty things. lol
malibu dream. try that at coffee bean. apparently coffee bean has become clearly better than the other coffee joints in town. haha. running with the guys tmr.

my horoscope should tell me my mind will be occupied with money matters this month.

lingyus blog is always very thought provoking. stems from saying vague stuff so it seems like shes talking about something in particular but yet applicable to things in general. and when she talks about relationships, id just conveniently distance myself from them. i convince myself its not me. maybe some other guy. but nonetheless i think thats not the important bits. cos being able to use this outlet to let them all out prevails over anything. "youre not THAT important" the little elves whisper to me. =]

JOHN MAYER

all guitar enthusiasts. please head for your nearest tablature website and give -daughters a shot.
anyone wanna sell me a second hand acoustic guitar.? the sort i can use to poke my box with. the box needs a new man. please please. just tag.

seems like only mandy loves me lately. haha.

heh love=]

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

BAD TIMING. BLIMEY!

could things be worse??. i dont know what to think now man. flying fuck.
my hk trip is 3-8 june.
initially, i was so damn happy cos i only miss one sat of training with them.
now, upon some research. holy. i miss 3 days cos of laser trophy. and another during student laser. 4 days of quality racing time with them. oh my. honestly, i feel like cancelling the trip. the nett monetary benefit far leans towars the racing. i sacrifice 200 deposit. i earn an extra 800 instead. but its not the money which im looking at. its simply sa sailors chance to do well in the nationals, against the friends who i wanna travel with. wow. thank heavens i chose hongkong. cos i promised. and i'd like to deliver. to shop shop shop... no regrets. but things havent been perfect have they. so for the 600 i lost. i say fuck. for the times the sailors race without me around. fuck.
but for hongkong, i say i made the right choice. =]

the dately updates

for all my supposed wounds, nothing quite beats the pool ball size bruise on my knee.
spent the day away rubbing at it whilst watching tv. watching too much of denise keller might just make me think shes desirable. lucky for me shes 23 and she dumped this 21 year old bartender from sweden. anyways. dinner was great. decided not to BUY again so i think my bank balance is still healthy for this month. no birthdays in sight!. anyone wanna apply?.

no time to dawdle with you people, tennis beckons, and until the next episodeeeeee
may the force be with you.


-even sidious says that. wassup man.

to those self absorbed.

YOU. if you come here thinking i give a flying fuck about you. then you got another think coming up.

FOR ME MAGAZINE

feeling good. wounds are healing slowly. i reckon there'll be soccer tmr. not gonna go with jh cos there's no transport to ang mo kio. goddamn far place honestly. his boots are sitting at my house. so i reckon he might have trouble playing, too. dont think he got time to bother bout it cos he's at a hotel with his church friends see. anyway good luck to him.

today was second week coaching sa. salt water does alot of good to your everything. honest. footrot, half bleeding wounds, stupidity, u name it. wind was really strong..there was a gybe where every one capsized except vanessa, probably only cos she was on the powerboat and i was sailing her boat. lol. they really shouldnt be eating chicken rice for lunch. now my powerboat was oily rice spilled over. damn. edgar's really good. grace and michelle are learning really fast. abby, however, had a bad day. maybe its too much boys. she didnt even stay for the debrief.hmm. yup anyways, a great way to earn a buck. felt like its some serious use of TIME.

greg ian and shaun are at shauns house. was gonna join em. but i fell alseep. alien quadrilogy?. paisay. his house abit ulu lah. and i abit sian to go all the way there. take bus and what nots..
so i stay, at home, cooked mutton soup for dinner, and yoghurt. watched tv to waste time. but there was good tv!. damn. it was. eye for a guy 2, this show about oddyseus on hallmark, simultaneous with phoenix suns vs dallas maverick AND FA Cup final. anyways, oddyseus was greatt...love these ancient stories alot. the names.ooh...so nice. since young i kept thinking, plato, archimedes, pythagoras, and whoever was quite cool.=p so, arsenal won the cup by attrition. paul scholes missed the penalty. and the suns beat the mavs by 2. the leagues MVP this year was from the suns. pretty amazing. steve nash, the guy who cant run fast, cant jump and has no muscles is the MVP. simply cos he's an outstanding playmaker. have u seen a team who just pass him the ball to GAO DIM everything??. cool dude, ugly dude, too.
haha.

the supposed outing with mich shu justin leon and hongkiat really crashed and burned.
mich kept delaying it as tho the whole world were free all night long. shu couldnt make it. justin got sick of waiting(i dont blame him) leon was busy being the dancing king. and kiat was probably messing with jieying. heh. so now, time to sleep. careful who drops by eh.. i know whos you.

how ironic. im hungry, and my mom's magazine is sitting right here. its an aussie mag. it says loudly. "super food ideas" can u believe it, the name is super food ideas. how simple. rather than some pseudo highlife healthy eating shit.=]

sis and bf just came into my room. they watched the match from some tiger shit in town. haha..dowanna go be lightbulb aye. tiger shit as in tiger beer. adrian is like MULU. and im like wtf??. and he's like Manchester United Loser United. haha. i cant wait for the some shit to come my way honestly. quick quick. make my life exciting.

oh yes, i wanna buy a racer. anyone gotta second one i'd like to buy from you yea?. just tag. my aleoca is so bad, cycling isnt getting from a to b. but rather exercise in itself. cos im like pedalling a junkyard along. im growing. and i feel it each day. uzamki naruto. 135. some medical centre episode man. ero sennin!.

okay. aircons getting just about the right temperature for me to snooze.
if you read this, cai loves you.=]

jackass

today, i did something johnny knoxville will be proud of. wont go into too much detail.



cai was happily cycling down the hill handsfree and relaxing=]

hong: eh cai, u confirm fall one.

cai:wtf?

hong: if you use your left hand to change the gear on the right side of your handlebar, you sure fall.

hong: u consperm fall.

not missing a beat, cai fell to his right, trying to change his gear. hong, unable to react quickly, cracshed into cai, braking so hard he flew over his handlebars and over cai. hong's front tire was parked nicely next to cais head, lucky it didnt roll over my head. current situation, cai below, two bikes on top. suddenly, renfred: knee nah beh!!! kaboom. e brake again, and suddenly situation becomes cai bike bike bike renfred. nice job cai. 3 guys in a heap. 3 bikes in a heap. in the middle of the road. then a car HAD to come by and witness the greatest pileup of all time.

eventually, all 3 of us were laughing so hard esp me. cos of my EXTREME stupidity. hahaha. just obeyed hongs order. escaped with lacerations on my knee and shoulder. and the rest had bruised egos and we all had damaged bikes. but the laughter amidst the pain. hifuckinglarious.
"all okay?" "yeaa." -continue laughter-

kinda forgot that i had one soccer ball in the face, one knee in my knee, and an aggravated muscle pull in the groin before that at street soccer with alot of malay dudes. PRO. now my nose hurts. my lip hurts. my knee hurts. but best part is, my jaw hurts from too much laughter with the sailor guys..

okay not too much for today.
gotta wake at 830 for training at 930 tmr. toodles folks.

one of the rare movies i watched. 18th may. why has the price to go up so quickly? 

hows your car, nina?

okay, i can finally post properly. weeks been going by really quick cos i've made it a conscious effort to do stuff, anything to do its worthwhile i realise. unfortunate that i usually experience keyboard diahorrea when i blog, hence u get alot of incoherance.

yup, anyway, yday was fun, 3 mugs of carlsberg(wtf) and a daiquiri. was nice and high after that. gimme a break, i havent had a drink since march?? yea. me and duck requested for daughters by john mayer. to hear it live would be great. then zack was like "we have alot of requests for this song, so we'll work on it" too late alr. the lead singer was like, a hit with the angmohs man. literally crawling around him. well, another life alternative eh?.=] played some drinking games. a screamy character was particularly inept.hhaha. till she got high she couldnt really figure the difference between archi and ugly. =p. kept thinking bout the aldo shoes i saw at harbourfront and again in wheelock wassit?. 129. im gonna go hongkong first. then if there arent any better loafers there, i'd get it. soooo darn ex. fuck.

yes, in the excitement of the soccer game yday, i pulled a muscle. probably a groin muscle. now i cant really do very much with the right leg. hopefully i recover for the game jh has on sunday. more church lovin.=]. ujust gonna rant abit bout this morning. cycled down to nsc, just for 5 mins for this fucker to check my boat license whether its stuck on my boat correctly. dumbass right?. sigh. seeing peiming roy justin and zhen go for holland regatta(previously spa regatta) does make me a tad jealous. the beautiful everything was always memorable.=]

okay. looking forwards, i got nothing up today . rest the leg. heal dammit.
later folks.

SEXIEST ISSUE!!

wow, today was indeed different.
organised a quick soccer game, with which i enjoyed my self thoroughly.
no more amateurish shit, i'd think the gang are pretty good. better sailors of course. but soccer-wise we've progressed. sengleong had a hard time by far trying to dominate us like he used to.
anyways, rain came and whoa, got soaked to the bone there.
and cos of this horrible rain, the sailing gathering got changed to town instead of siglap. so, had dinner at pizza taglio at wisma, then spent the rest of the night chatting and drinking away at indochine. had a blast!. met zack, the guitarist, shimona and cheryl who are jen's friends too. cheryl rides an rx-8, and thats just cool. hope i wasnt too high on nonsense to present myself properly.
not too bad, me and liangshuo, 7 girls. drinks all around, and a live band. NICE.
nice catching up with them and hearing stuff bout other people in school.
liangshuo's changed from mean to liberal. whole day talking bout sex. uknow, didnt have to know the lurid details, but he sorta shared em anyway. this girl that girl. not too nice there huh.
met nat boey at the mrt before all that, she said hi greg. lol

anyways, fulfilling day, gonna get up early for my boat inspection.

need PEEKtures, from jasmine and thanda.=]

night.

i can - nas

short game of tennis today. running about, then i went to town to meet jasmine.
dessert, caught star wars episode 3- revenge of the sith. which was a blast honestly. I LOVEDDDDD IT. haha...i really dreaded the time i had to visit the toilet. haha. then we just walked around and chatted whilst shopping. honestly was great. fresh air and someone new to talk to. sounds great so far?. gets better.


ever had a quantum leap in your decisions before?. sitting at paragon starbucks over a mocha frappe and muller yoghurt, mulling over life choices, i suddenly heard of a concept so obvious and so direct, i must have missed it in my single-mindedness. and the BOOM. it hit me squarely where it mattered. im gonna take a general degree, and get outta the uni asap. sounds great?. it is!. if i took chem engine, the 4 years will take alot out of me, and my occupation after would most likely be related. but i dont wanna choose. as yet!. so yes. i have decided. in a twenty minute span of pondering, i chose. and boy did i feel right about it.



now i only hope im not too late. and i have a chance to change.

whats a wonderwall anyway?

heh. as i was just telling ian. i saved on laundry today.
go figure.
i need fresh air.... walk on the beach would be great. and some better nutrition. feeling UNHEALTHY.

so tmr, i forsee, either a run, tennis, going town with phantom person.
this biathlon thing looms closer.
like quite ENG right?. and i havent even had my uni medical done. brilliant!.

good night world.

scaredycats

wow. recovering from the 4 consecutive days of physical exhaustion equate to one entire day of sleep for me man. great. i feel great. a day wasted, but wont have many more days to waste once august comes.


kinda hoping that people around me would be more umm..open minded?. we're 21 and dont we all already know of all the nonsense that happens around us today? trying to distance yourself from it dont make you look saintlike, more often than not it makes you delusional. infidelity, backstabbing, dishonesty, keeping secrets from your friends, and doing things u dont want your closest friends to know. whats up with all that man?. wished people around me would put everything on the table. wont kill anyone outright. if people think you're fucked up then least u wont be fucked up forever!. ha. not pointing finger at any particular person. cos honestly, everyones never entirely truthful.

"u cant handle the truth!" -jack nicholson.

zhang dong liang

from the box where i keep the items of value, pictures, cards, letters galore, i picked up a pink book. and i couldnt resist the urge to peek inside. and as you rightly said, to remember and reminisce the stuff we did, was priceless. barely a fraction, but just a little bit to remind me of not-so-long-ago memory was nice.

thanks ling-yu for being greeat.
hope our paths cross again.

house gymnastics.

cheap thrill. thats what i'm seeking.
soccer, tennis, sailing. thats my idea of a cheap thrill.
just had a game with leon loooo. haha lost 6-3. but it felt so good hitting balls the way we did!
anyway, my groin is still dying. gonna ease up on my body for these cheap thrills. otherwise my back will be next. sounds like some creaky old man eh?. nah. its just me. the sports nut.. been toying with the idea of joining the biathlon society in NUS. with dreams of completing an ironman in future. amazing??. far from it. naomi(a sailing friend, the asian games gold one), did two half ironmans before. and that, i must say, completion is equal to winning alr. 2.4 ocean swim, 112 bike ride, 26.2 run. in miles. so just times 1.7 for conversion to kilometres. and thats what u gotta do consecutively to be an ironman. thinking about it already gives me the chills. biathlon,triathlon, half ironman, ironman. well, something to chew on before i enter the university. regularly running 35km, and swimming 4km weekly sounds like a plan.

back to more mundane bits, ian and nic are just doing their thing as usual. greg's out with jieying. jianhongs done with his new job, and seeing the situation decided to go home.=], and peepeedog? probably in shanghai eating crap out of a monkeys head as i type this.
my super funny sisters babies need more bedding, so she wants me to go parkway to buy.. nonetheless, going lavender to meet hongkiat, justin and leon for some food. leon's coming to pick me up. too bad shuuuulin couldnt make it. (ha. this just to make you feel guilty)

got a few more episodes or futurama, how? i shant go into too much detail. all i know, VERY often i wanna be as stupid as Fry, feel like marrying a girl like LeeLa, even with her lone eye. having a good friend like bender, who'd burn the town down with me, a dad like Professor Farnsworth, who'd always tell me "Good News Everyone." and a doctor like Dr John Zoidberg, currently seen often on my msn photo, for he will most definitely make me laugh all my illness away. materialistic woman like Amy Wong can stay away from me, however..hha..

gonna list a few controversial personalities in my life. somehow, i dont qualify for that list.
isnt that great??
no1: sim jianhong. (altho i dont see why honestly)
no2: nicole mok. (this one i dont see why not=])
no3: wong hongkiat. (haha ng lah. but he recently got added to the list)
no4: loh jieying. (recently added=])
no5: koh sengleong. (our resident olympian cum paedophile=]=]=])
no6: eugene lau. (who, honestly, be placed much higher up the list)
no7: fong zhiguang. (whos an educated ahbeng who like to make commotions at supper)
forgive me for missing out on some.

wanted to add fong xiongkun. but no.1, he's too positively controversial. and no.2, he's not really been a part of my life for awhile.

gonna run..
class gathering.
shuu u better show up!.

photo galore.

wow, the weekends so much better than the weekdays. issit cos everyones out?. probably, cos weekdays when i get out, its almost like evening time so people are done with work and school anyways. saturday was coaching, then soccer, then going out to town with the guys. 3/4 way done with spam kings, but all the techno gizmo nonsense is done!!. bah. now all they do is put the damn spammers behind bars. no more programs or ideas to make a million bucks like brad bournival did. i love borders. tad noisy, but i feel like reading..woah. amazing.

then today, omg. my groin was still aching from sat. then jh asked me to play soccer with his church! so i duly went, and had a blast. seriously field soccer was great. then when i put on jh's boots, the adidas one, OHMYGOD. it was great. scored a volley, and took the corner which resulted in the winning goal. no melee thank you, just corner kick, header, and goal. wow. didnt know playing with boots would be so fun... now my hamstrings, lats, quads and groin all screaming bloody murder i tell you. aww.. but the pain, its just beautiful.=]

i need my family back. they're never around n weekends. so ladies and gentlemen, the song of the week.

mrlonely-----bobby vinton.

THIS IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. FUTURAMA. LOVE IT, OR SHOVE IT. 

having fun at topman, again. 

indochine anybody?. stolen from amanda.  

what a day

i just realised, nothing stops me from getting money.
NOTHING
bwahahaha

in alphabetical order. abby, edric, grace, jiayi,michelle, samuel, vanessa, yunling.

and the girl who sat on the powerboat with me.
DAMN i forgot her name.
gah!.
not too bad too too bad.
but not super.

randamnations.

my mom is really naggy this week. OMG. shes super sweet but too naggy already.
as i'd encourage any mom/person/lost soul out there. pursue what you truly desire. dont ever let that get lost on you.
if you start living for your loved ones, you'd lose your individuality.
live for oneself, and love your loved ones with all your heart.

anyway, went out to meet greg, where i got my old hard disk sent for repair.
"you cant fathom how important the stuff is in there. but when the dude told me 200-300 bucks, i was like, okay. forget it" - for futurama fans.
got my camera fixed too, but i reckon its too ex so after i get the quotation i'd consider fixing against getting a new one. any recommendations people? that greg ah. fucking irritating. stubborn mule about where the camera shop is. gah. anyway. good company. my brother.
took another chapter off spam kings in borders before heading home early. cos my sis's hamster snuck into my moms toilet and i had to save her. the mom, of course. which, by the time i got home, was fixed.
it must be said that today there were quite a few pretty girls gallivanting around town today. i must have been a hit in my dfs plastic bag, misorientated hair, white teeshirt, and hairless legs clad in old slippers. as my guy friends would agree, it'll be a good time to be dating. but come on guys, it doesnt work that way. if u felt like getting a gf cos u were just BORED. thats pretty fuck up innit. you just need entertainment. not a girlfriend. thats a plus.

bumped into jingyu and bf at simlim.=]

gotta get to nsc tmr to coach. first day.
oh yes, people. check out my msn photo. its fucking cute. zoidberg forever.


current mantra: those who havent watched futurama havent known me.

I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES OF MY CHEEKUEH AND CAI PO DINNER.!!!!!

calamifuckingty

welcome to the fast lane

bumped into s48 ian on the way home.
was with tengren and ian tan.

s48 ians date for the day was tengrens cousin.
she's really pretty. just like tengren!. wow.

did i mention i played tennis?.
haha.


i wanna wake up to she who makes my heart pound like mad everyday.
and i'll open my eyes slowly every morning. in anticipation that this ordinary day isnt a dream.
i wish i wish.

crisis

its always one problem after another.
and naturally, it doesnt seem like a big thing anymore.
unless coming off a high, problems in comparison would be very disturbing.
cai's theory of relativity.

so, bought a nautica shirt yday. tried to post pics but hello wasnt entirely cooperating.

somebody just called me and told me im only needed on sat till 2pm. very strange. somehow i have a feeling there's a lot of turmoil there. hopefully i can fix it. i dont like instability.

tennis today, gonna see ren loo and andy. haha.. been awhile for sure.

hongkong trips booked and paid for, and i better fix my digicam before the trip, lest i miss out on the beautiful sights.

interesting fact 1: i dont own a single pen.
interesting fact 2: i've been reading.
spam kings @ borders
me who stared at goats @ mph parkway.


gentle request to rosalind. i'd appreciate it if you, or any of your aliases stop trying to contact me or my friends. at home or overseas. to stop visiting this or their blogs.



ling-yu: eh where've u been man?. i've been trying to contact you for help with the particular function your blog has which is useful. having fun there i hope.=]

gregory ng sin guan: congrats on getting into smu. now im the only person from teg not NOT in SMU. bah.

just tea.

indeed.
this constant drizzle dribble saves me and effort to think about whether to run or not.
its unfortunate my house/pool doesnt have a swimming anymore.
yday ended up chatting with isaac bout stuff. and i got to know him better in the process.
i think thats more worthwhile than watching orlando bloom fight baddies and looking not so wussylike. amazing how people keep associating him with troy innit?. and speaking of association, i just read the newspaper about patricia moks looks. and honestly, i think only in singapore, where societies so godamn small, can people really associate her with being ugly.
shes in the fucking entertainment business for christs sakes. and her job is to entertain you with her antics while u unwind from a busy days work. and stupid fucks say she's really ugly. wahlaoeh. these people are ACTING ugly. and if u really think they're ugly.... its cos of two factors.
1. you actually believe what u see on tv most of the time.
2. shes a fucking good at her job.

from the article i sense shes rather insecure, as anyone would be.... and people should seriously keep a lid on tactless comments.

okay im gonna just say this, honestly, its really been bugging me for awhile.
how is it so right, that when im out in town right... just walking. people stare at me.
why?. that is the question. i wear a plain brown tshirt. levis jeans. and an innocuous brown pair of beetlebug shoes. and i see people staring at me. cant be the nose right. apparently it got smaller. ahah. okay that was a joke. people should be staring at those horrendous bright limegreen skirts, obscenely high socks and horrible hair. i think you get the point. haha. why ah?
wait. i didnt even gel my hair. i looked positively NORMAL. lah.

anyway, im just gonna say this, =], i got a job on saturdays coaching sajc again. which is good, but doesnt keep me from being bored 6-7 days a week. so im still actively looking. i dont mind giving chemistry tuition. so anybody.. besides this, i dont see what im willing to work as. no more $5-6/hr jobs for me. fuck you. lol..oh btw i hear from weetee sajc sailing is gonna close down. wtf.
and secretly, my aims to keep it open. just watch, world.

okay right now. im gonna watch another disc of futurama. then do abit of weights. then maybe sleep.
haha. nights.

sociology

if someone called you a bitch or a psycho woman.

how could you not defend yourself?

organizing my life

okay now.
things have to be done.

since janette left. few things i've been doing consistently.

1.make the bed.(never did that)
2.organize the room.
3.do the laundry.(never did that)
4.cook meals.(esp when noones home and im hungry)
5.do the dishes(never did that)
6.clean the table(never did that)
7.close all the windows before leaving the house.

thats a start. things get better from here im sure. at least i know i can live with myself.
mom just got an sms from jan. new employers are better now. they were initially stifling so i really pity her.=[

things i gotta buy or do. (note to self: requires cash)

1.fix my camera before hongkong.
2.get myself a new pair of glasses.
3.get myself started on monthly contacts.
4.settle my boat license with mpa.
5.a pair of soccer boots.
6.a musical box.

thats it for now. all i can remember actually.

currently listening to, heaven by los lonely boyz.

happy mothers day to mom.=]

homealone. and not exactly lovin' it

okay limmy.

i'll try okay.
with the harmless bits.
obviously meaning those which wont harm me.

CHEATING.
PSLE. check.
"O" Levels. check.
"A" Levels. check.
SAILING. check.
TENNIS. check.
LYING. check.

thats about as far as i can go. i tried. honestly.
sometimes i wish i had a red dot on my forehead.
"beep" "boom!"

mcfly

gimme another feel good song please?

but seriously.
bad things happen to fucked up people. and to be honest. i have been rather fucked up. so i rationalise my plight

plight=problem. what problem? basically life problem. nothing too bad really. better than some deadline or exam.=]
socially im a mess. i get along with everybody but im still a social mess. inept is the word.
hence i dont really bother talking to people, nor smile at people any longer.
i know not many people think very much of me. but its not jc anymore. where i thought that was important. i can quietly pursue my interests without fear. in between the pursuits, i still, need a nice talk or coffee. but since i've been fucked up, i get none. bah. brilliant
haha....this is what i used to call transition. the ohsoimportant phase of our lives.

FUCK IM SO FRUSTRATED. I GOT SO FUCKING MANY THINGS TO SAY BUT I CANT SAY THEM. WHY WHY WHY WHY MUST IT BE SO FUCKED UP.????????????????????????
I WANNA SAY STUFF. AND IF I CANT EVEN SAY IT HERE. THEN WHERE???






im choking on my blood. help me. help you.

sharing the speriences

its amazing man.
todays the first day i wore my new rank to camp.
but 4 people asked me why i looked tired.sian.sleepy. (wait i think it was 6)
cant help it if i look that way aye. i had tonnes of sleep. no work to do. i feel great.
cant help it if my eyes are small and have single eyelids right?. best. jacqueline said i look better when i smile. who doesnt. wants me to be a fucking hyena. bitch. just sign my fucking clearance aye. then i'll leave you guys alone. i need a 1WO SIM, 2WO KIM, COL (RETD) GOPI, 1WO ERIC, THENMOZHI(or more affectionately known as molly) and MDM LEE CHIN FONG. to get their pens on my paper. sign, and allow me to fuck off from army. oh wait. i for mr TARE JUAY HONG. =] full lieut only wot. im the same guy. people who treat me differently ought to suck less boots on their way up.
wont be seeing home till friday. and till then i wont be seeing camp till god knows when.
oc trying to mess with me again. but i repeat fervently that i wont go for ex spearmint.
the guys going dota now i think. great cos i feel as tho i really dont have to go. hope they realise that if i can i'll be there. so long as they're not dotaing.

sometimes i think. so many people read this, i cant dish out much dirt man. fucking blog has severe repercussions. some racist dude got into trouble with uni the last i read. blog=freedom of speech nomore. i got alot of dirt to dish actually. but i cant. what the hell. should i get a new blog.? give people limited access? cant. too lazy.

blogs aside, today i realised quite alot of my uni friends have finished their exams. which means they're pretty free. jasmine, swanlynn ended today. so i think NUS must be finishing soon. dot's one finished quite awhile ago so i think SMU's finished. i realised i got no friends in NTU!!. ahaha no close ones at least. why ah?. jurong point still.
hmm..well happiness to all you souls out there. i'll join your joy in bout 3 days time.
i called mr ng yday for a job on the sa sailing team as coach. so hopefully it works out well. no need money, but i guess i quite enjoy it. besides, the team now probably dont know me at all!. haha...new challenges.

anyways, u ever wonder why i like to blog about sailing, tennis, camp, and friends?.
cos thats what my life consists of. you'll think, oh how typical. but thats cool. you'll only have a outside perspective of my life. and amidst all these simple things i occupy myself with, you'll never catch the excitement, joy, fun, happiness and love i experienced. how i enjoyed my tacking duels, how i hit tat glorious down the line shot with my backhand, how i enjoyed the laugh with my colleagues with their endless non-sequiters, and how i enjoy banging ians oddities, jianhongs gayness, gregs perspective and shauns indifference. as a reader, you'd never know exactly, but i encourage u find out, cos sometimes you never know what u're missing. ask vicky, kristie or dawn how they felt when they got a glimpse of teg. or greg how he felt when we won the nationals. ahhh..brilliant. everyday should be spent working towards those moments.

currently bored in camp. sick of camp, seeing the end in sight, im just holding my breath.


random thought: what u read is how i'd write my essays without thought or organisation. haha. thank god i always remind myself to do so when im writing aye?? =]

chin chau water.

back to camp soon.
last week already.

how'd this week go?.
refreshingly new.

i dont think i saw any of teg today.
i saw so much of the old sailing friends.
justin riliang hong sengleong jackson chris maxi FENGYANG too.
ha that dude went to new zealand for so many years. big guy now.
even saw zhichao. fucking dressed up in his billabong nonsense. apparently going out to see helena. and sengleong. my good friend got attached also didnt tell me. wth. to a girl i know too. omg. sometimes u cant see things coming man. INTERESTING. ahh..like a blast of cool air hitting the face.

oh wait. did i mention the echo outing was fucking fab?. stayed at the hive which is a hostel set up by some echo instructors till 5 am in the morning. oh wait...reckon i already did.
ha. this weekend was less the usual friends and more catching up with old friends!
totally. anyways. this weekend was just different.

i spoke to lingyu on the phone. i reckon u read this so im just gonna say u sounded cheerful.
must be post exam joy..hope alls good




okay cricket club bound for dinner.
toodles folks.

john mayer

Daughters


I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all the walls all continually change

I've done all I can
To stand on the steps with my heart in my hand
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers, who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh you see that skin
It's the same shes been standing in
Since the day she was him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers, who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys you can break
You'll find out how much they can take Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth for a womans good, good heart

On behalf of every man, looking out for every girl
You are the god, and you are the weight of the world

On behalf of every man, looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of the world

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers, who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

compilation of thoughts

hmm..my brains saturated with stuff.
i only know i slept at 6 this morning and got up at 12.
gathering at the hive at lavender was a blast.
everyone must agree with me that the wing gathering a a success. food drinks chit chat.
chatted with so many old friends. how telling that we're all gonna ord, about life and moving on.
nianjia(ninja) my jcc nomad teamate from foxtrot wing is the only one going to chem engine from echo...cool.more friends.=]=].. good to see neo, our sof representative. and chat with all the commandos, and basically all the dudes. sulaiman too..my buddy, now married. omg..
after that when people started to leak outta the place at 11-12 mn, louis' ex di appeared, so it was me louis calvin spence leon and another arti guy staying back to chit chat, sing to guitar and ipod.=]. fun. drank too much jimbeam and smoked too much for my own good. someone remind me to keep it to these parties. strawberry shisha. wth. peach cigs?. di's with sia so she got alot of these stuff. she's a fun woman i say. yea then calvin came over and stayed over. went to east coast for lunch. so convenient to just fucking walk over man. BAK KUT TEHHHH..ahhhhh=]

besides that, calvin came over and showed me some interesting revelations from his friendster contacts. for once friendster was useful!. ahaha..well the guys will be dying to hear the newest man. and honestly, i cant wait to hear from you.
ahahahha. fucking funny. im just rolling. chatted with calvin bout(nothing else but) sex. we actually screwed up one mission in taiwan on top of an objective talking bout sex and not doing our job properly.
hahaha nizam was so pissed.
haha....those were the days.
me and calvin.-nod-
noones home as usual. so im just alone again. good luck pop with your flying test. love yea.
soccer later, out.



OH YES. MOST IMPORTANTLY.
THANKS LEON FOR STAYING BACK TO SEND ME HOME.
YOU'RE A VERY SWEET GUY. SORRY FOR BEING SEMI HIGH.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.