hiktas!

eh fuck lah. i have so many emotion.
bloody hell like girl like that uknow. its so damn shit.
i wish to be more one dimension. more one-track mind.

tuesday was great in school. and it started going downhill when one bloody dumb-assed girl said hi to me. by the time i reach home im rock bottom. fuck you. i dont know you. u ask fucking stupid questions and waste my time. u think you're damn pretty. holy crap. DONT TALK TO ME. my day was perfect before u fucking opended your crap hole at me. I'M ENTITLED TO BE GRUMPY. NI NAOBEH

anyways, mom's back from europe. got my camera.
im thinking of changing this blog to a sailors blog. pics of my boat, sailing and shit. will make it more interesting.

feel like vomitting. chicken rice and chicken chop in NUS then char kuay tiao at home.
fucked up day. why?. why? why?

take all your big plans and break em

was gonna be a long deliberated post.
but since sth important popped up. i'll leave it for another day.
i answered one of the biggest questions i had about life today.

why focus on one area of your life, to be successful innit, when the world around you goes by?
u miss out on all the stuff happening there.

because if you dont, u'll miss out on all the great people in that area.
great friends especially.

kinda fuzzy this concept. but least i've one less force pulling on my tail.
one less question to answer. and i feel lighter already.


short one on how my days been.
sailing is just damn fun lah... now i dont get raped by colin manyi and victoria so much.
its actually damn fun. haha thats 2x damn fun already. today was damn hot tho..im quite burnt now.
and my buddy sengleong. ahaha. what can i do without you..
laugh at my jokes, perpetually miscommunicating with me.
if i didnt have a crush on roy i'd def break u and bun up.

schools been a bitch
BAD. JUST PLAIN BAD.
starts again tmr. wish me luck.
forget about the so called babes. im in a hurry to go sailin.
forget bout the lectures i dont learn squat.

i just wanna sail faster upwind and ride the waves downwind.
thank god for nice ppl like maxi sengleong manyi zhenhao marc
and the non laser people like roy and zhang.

i just realise i know everyone participating in this years sea games. every single damn boat i know whos going okay. if they all win gold... i can get ready for a december full of treats.

laser sl and $
420 zhen justin/dawn bun
470 roy peiming/toh leeching
optimist paul and gris

thats potentially like $50k for those guys..
im close enough to 5 boats to demand a treat.
i can smell asian games next year. oh how tempting.

a sailors' journal.

going training again in abit... and im pretty sure i'll do better than last weekend.. learning o sail the laser hasnt been easy by any means.. but mayling was so encouraging, she asked me if i was in TAP(talented athlete program) yet. and thats my aim for now. and i bet she's the only one who thinks i can.. so i just gotta make more people agree with her! ahaha thanks to her man.. made my day. together with shirley and jal, i think the reception staff at nsc if damn happening lah.. always laughing. i cant just see how fast others are going and try to beat tt. i gotta put my head down abit more and focus on myself.

as nicole says, im gonna sail smart, not hard.
dreamt of her last night. how weird. she was walking in eastern lagoon2. my old house as i was going back for my tennis game.

oh yea people, listen to carrie underwoods song -inside your heaven

debentured to do so.

i eat the bloody cereal inside lah okay. where got cockster eat cardboard one.
wtf...

hot and fresh out the kitchen

hoohoo...very lazy to even log on and type.
unis been social i must say.
nobody recognises me now. which is cool.

me to X: i dont recognize you man

X to me: i dont recognise you either(with the sorta stunned face)

happens everyday still.

so anyway..
this post is dedicated to all the pretty girls out there.
cos the girls are talking about them. and so are the guys(no shock there)
yea i know i like to talk about girls, but let me get this off my chest wont you. tis my blog, if u remember.

dot told me her classmate jeanette is a model now. oh okay. when i see the photo im like. wahlaoeh. either i go jc bak chiu tak stamp. or i go there bak chiu stuck onto my text book.
dot's 1 cm taller than me. so when she say jeanettes legs go on forever, i also sian zi bua.
actually i think anybody can be model lah. as long as u put your sibeh chao bin on the line, not scared paisay. i think can. its for the kinda people outside look sibeh cool, but inside sibeh haolian kind. "look at me im kan chio" type. but dot if u read this, im not saying you okay. cos u already atas already. graduated from model school. now everybody COPY you. haha.
i think tyra banks see you also say u kan chio.=p

so yea anyway, hit the gym early today cos grp met up for legal work. 3-6.30 of just sitting there man. even longer then the damn sectional itself. nice group i have. peiling peiying (not related) jeremiah and thomas. basically talk about litigation and acts and chapters and sectionas until i really got sick of it. law can suck my lollipops. waste of time.

but on a totally new note. lifes good if u keep it packed with shit.
like mine. im on a strict EAT ALL YOU CAN PLAN.
my usually my meals consists of three parts. and i've eaten three complete boxes of cereals in two weeks. and the fourth one is already half gone. eh so girls. if u see this, try to imagine poor manyi whos trying just as hard to gain weight as i am. and still being conscious physically unlike me. sucks huh. nvm lah....if nobody wants her..... i also dont want. wahaha... kidding k. later her father come find me.
IF I TELL YOU WHO MANYIS FATHER IS. all the guys will scoot faster than i can say the word LO. which is his last name of course.

thats all for now. good night.

once again, guys have proven to be, bastards

some nice songs i've been listening to lately.
mainly thanks to some girl friends who, send me thru msn and spare me the act of first degree piracy.
stay-lisaloeb
wake me up when september ends-greenday
iris/hereisgone-googoodolls
ignitionremiz-rkelly old fav.
message-nas
burn-jodeemessina
dare you to move-switchfoot.

- war doesnt determine whos right, but whos left -
wah i love this quote... not exactly a gem.. but where do you get meaningful quote which is lame too? been outta this fighting and killing shit forawhile.. but if you were a regular soldier, shooting indiscriminately and killing wantonly, this quote might just ring deep.

so matt, like this? credits to him.
icesleet. go find him.

@NUS

sch's been a total pain. the lady at the office who so sweetly tended to my appeal has seen me 4 times and now she looks at me with utter disdain. sigh. that face really killed it for me. spoilt my day.
im sorry but i didnt mean to cause u all that trouble. doesnt help that its so every-man-for-himself out there.


on another note: theres a time for everything. mr maran, my discipline master in VS always said. with his commanding voice.
and this is definitely the time to start cracking. i hope the cyberparkers do too. cos this dota craze is reaching dangerous level esp when school starts. thankfully i didnt make that mistake in j2. but i guess my friends should be smart enough to know themselves. just hope everything turns out well.

i see julia really often in school. and charkwa too. and i must comment that julias absolutely head turning to me. not to everyone i have since found out. but just to me. yea i know..my eyes dont conform to society. and that plastic surgery girl michelle teh.

quite sad for me cos i vote myself as the worse dressed person in biz. min attire today was polo jeans and slippers. i was in t-shirt shorts and slippers. AND THEY DIDNT EVEN MATCH! haha dammit i better start getting more self conscious. i wore my nautica shirt inside out to school on wed.=]

mundane occurances

are most important. because they define us, and what we'll become.

different things which happened today. almost fell asleep during marketing lect.
ate at macdonals near engine
and im telling you
its so much cheaper there.
im never eating outside macs anymore. 440 for a macspicy double meal. wow!.
spending money on nothing but textsbooks, which positively weigh tonnes i tell you.
met sharlene. jianfengs gf. she was very friendly i must say. totally put me off guard. esp the part where she started using the paper she was holding to touch my shirt. ahaha..so gay right.
then met charkwa also. at the milo van..haha she was so enthusiastic about drinking milo...
NUS often has the milo van..how cools that huh.
ian the handsome rj gep was also in my marketing lect. what a coincidence. so he smsed wenqi asked her if i was me .
cos he couldnt recognise me.

3-6 lect was extremely draining...my contacts was giving me problems so i took them off
eyes still smarting now so i should stay up much long. appeals tmr. no class yet i gotta go school
shit
okay im totally babbling so sorry to anyone reading this.
stasia the russian girl from vj is HOT. amazing what a few years can do to someone.

school and training tmr. and school officially has started!
bring it on.

all the miles that seperate.

i was gonna put this on my msn nick.
but i reckon i'd share this with everyone who drops by.=]

you love someone not because you were meant to be in love.
but because u want to. and very often, what u want isnt whats good for you.

east coast park boy.

not too shabby i'd say.
3 people say i look like a hippie

hip·pie also hip·py
n. pl. hip·pies :
A person who opposes and rejects many of the conventional standards and customs of society, especially one who advocates extreme liberalism in sociopolitical attitudes and lifestyles.

haha serious. im fine with that. but the word extreme is abit err..too much i think.
but im not out to challenge standards, but trying out new things keeps me going, whether or not its lawful or lawless.

so anyway, after delivering food to the sailors at NSC, there was a meeting. where i got invited to join the national squad for the laser class. andres sigmond, my old coach in jc is the new laser coach so now things in the squad looks more solid now. the wind was blowing and we had a kickass session of sailing such that my body hurts till now. 3 days of strong wind sailing really took its toll on me. stupid maxi gave me this horrible clew strap which came off halfway so i had to head back early to change it before coming out again.

after training i met greg and ian in parkway to rv before going to tengren's 21st bday celebration. bought him the new coldplay album x&y. stupid maxi told me its called "speed of sound" which is just a song in the album. the celebration was cool. one big white tent near splash.
friends galore. vj friends, tennis juniors, sa friends. but most importantly, i met martins parents.
i dunno, but somehow after a certain accident in new zealand i had, i felt bonded with them, cos they cared for me as tho i was their own. hence im ultra super nice to them always. a short chat after awhile was good. so then, storytelling on the beach and some drinks later(whose birthday party so special buy stella artois for me one?) ended up at masayu having supper. stuffed myself with a third dinner of nasi goreng pattaya. headed home to my sis ongoing party at 3am. watched finished my naruto 146 and fell asleep.

on another note: i've pissed two important people lately. sometimes im at a loss of what to do.
is it avoidable when u accidently spurt things u dont really wanted to say?. sorry doesnt seem to cut it, so i guess i'd just bow my head and reflect. ...

naruto146 time.

time waits for nobody.
and today it is an asset to me.

just know, just know

that im tired.

healthy family drink

today was a delightfully bloggable day. it was a good day. i must say

first i went to school from 10-12. intro to life for the next 3 years began. how terribly exciting i must say. working with people.. stress and shit. checking out the girls in lecture didnt go to well. i think if i dont get attached soon. i might forget. its been very long. and not say im not looking k. but i guess those i saw today dont exactly float my boat. sounds familiar?.

then i went sailing. either maxi was having a bad day or i was having a really really good one.
i kicked his 80kg butt so bad he went back early cos it was wasting his time. so out there alone. i went upwind, did 50 quality tacks. and went back downwind practising my gybes.. wind god was shining on me today. blew perfectly for me. 10-12 knots i'd say.
then came the most beautiful part. when i was sailing on starboard tack straight out, suddenly the clouds parted, and this beautiful beam of sunlight shot straight at my sail, illuminating it, making it stand out from the rest of the sea. it made me feel very special, like god was shining on me himself. wow. suddenly i felt strength resonate in my legs again. i dont mind sailing again for another moment like this. as the wind picked up, i stopped practising tacks and decided it was better to work on my boat speed and fitness, which come hand in hand. i tried very hard to torque the boat over the waves, to steer the boat up the crest of the wave, and surf down the top of it, not losing any speed by crashing into any waves.

after doing all that i was damn tired i could barely do gym, so i squeezed 32 mfs outta my body before i felt my abs muscles getting injured again. so i stopped and cycled home.

went to zouk cos i got free tix all around.. funny part is, i wore the cocaine tshirt my sis bought for me, so the bouncer didnt let me in1 ahaha. cock right. so i went home, not too keen on going in anyways, the guys probably dancing now, but im happy where i am. having cabbed back, with the most hilarious hokkien taxi driver ever. he was so horny. kept talking about girls nowadays and in the past. i tried to keep up with his constant babble. and laughed out loud when he suggested putting a firehose into the private parts and blasting it with water to flush out all the AIDS she might potentially have. it was really funny. no harm to you girls reading this tho. it was all joke. the lack of knowledge about AIDS is really appaling i must say, with the older population.

so here i am. sitting down on my desk. with no living soul in my house. the other two living beings are the hammies. which are. TOO cute in my opinion.
secretly happy. wishing for life to continue this way.=]

a sound in the distance

someones gotta settle breakfast.
so i went to parkway to grocery shop.
the truth is, i love it.

i always get stares from all the old aunties cos im really outta place there.
so anyway. i just like it.

first official day of sch for me tmr. dont ask.
then sailing. then clubbing. wth. im going cos shaun ian greg and zg need free entry.
i'd rather lan tmr. i think sl's gonna kill me for pangsehing.

met chunchun on the bus. used to be the blur blur type in school.
now she's so much more worldly wise.=]

only on the southside

so well, got really pissed off at myself for losing my housekey.
sorry for all the vulgarity. but i hope u understand. the anguish of having your folks look at you with all the disdain and disappointment in the world. is enough to make any man crack.

not too many details on my life.
go watch wedding crashers. if u dont laugh like a hysterical hyena.
you're not my kinda person..

i want you to burn.

fuckingchaocheebyenabehhongganpuborlanjiao.
goddamnsonofabitchpieceofshitasshole.
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optrex- to help your eyes see better

maybe u came here wondering.
whats cai been upto?

or instead u came here because you're bored.
and you were like:"what the hell i'll just click and voyeur"

or maybe im one of those on your favourites list,
maybe on your address list.
and just clicked anyway.

nonetheless. i shall bore you.
and im seriously gonna be good at it. so dont expect it to differ from the stated truth.

sailing, gym tennis. windsurfing tennis.
thats my tue and wed for you.
only difference is windsurfing today.
no lessons. just jump straight on and figure!
andrew foo was out with us. a PRO windsurfer.
and perhaps today was different cos i learnt something new.

me and clement. the lil bitch 

one of my favourites.  

where the hell did this come from?. got this from jh's hard disk. and some other memorable ones too. as you see above 

cocaine sniffing

wake up hair dry.
bathe hair wet.
watch tv hair dry.
cross road in rain hair wet.
walk to roxy hair dry.
wash hair hair wet.
blow dry hair dry.
wash again hair wet.
walk to parkway hair dry.
cross road in rain again hair wet.
reach home hair dry.

headache incoming.

yellow shirted flag day people hiding from rain in parkway also.
my straight face plus curt "no"s damn effective.
rejected about 5 people.

somehow, when the best looking girl of the lot stood alone at the hawker centre where i was headed for my bak chor mee asked me to donate. she had the right thing to say.
issit because she was better looking?. or issit just coincidence?

wanna donate? she said
no. was the curt reply
"we're from NUS. freshmen."

there we go. strike conversation about how im a freshman too.
and she gets my 50 cents.

whatever the case, i think im a slack uni student sia.
people collect money i go eat hawker food cut hair.
now going training so bye.

ling: another day. today reach home rain straightaway stop.
hope everythings fine. really wanted to meet up today.

burn baby burn

not bad for a day of work.
matric, shopped. all before noon.

yday was moms bday at holland v.
dinner was nice. micheangelo's restaurant. damn ex. but food was good lah i guess.
champagne and wine cant go wrong either.

played so much soccer yday cos the wind was really bad. and had my usual dose somemore at east coast hawker centre field. sigh. gotta stay fit. soccer is my cardio workout. and gyms good for strength.

spent $231 on hiking pants mainsheet and traveller at tim ross' shop.
another $128 on my new 6610i so i can return sengleong his phone today.
gonna see him later at gym probably.