retrenched

funny how early 2009 has been a tumultuous time for me.

everything is great on the work side.
friends side i cant really say the same.

seem to have pushed alot of people out of my life.
cant say im proud of it. especially the way i had to do it.

glad most of them realise it isnt their fault, but mine.
we;ll all have beautiful lives after all.

people come people go. thats thats how we roll.



2 things which have really occupied my mind.
the kiss between jandi and jun pyo which really made time stop.
and a hand which grabbed mine like no other. it had desperation, wanting, and friendship all laced into one, and alcohol as topping.
glad im still able to imagine things and dream. cos when its all settled, those dreams are all im left with.

GG

byebye season 2


serena please keep your boobs.


chuck now that u said it, they're gonna have their work cut out making u cool again.

fast food

im still thinking of those mad serves.
done pretty insane things with the serve.
but that one really stood out.



with tennis, and everything else in life, when everything clicks, shoulders hips torso knees ankles, we can achieve alot more than we believe.

laughter, the best medicine

ON SMS.

cai: guys, soccer at my place to watch man utd pick up the title then we can smthg after, those on please type "cai is my hero"


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REPLIES ON SMS.

poh: cai is my zero. poh is the dough

ian: pick up title your head. dinner provided? <----?!?!??!

greg: i come later.

zg: cai is a fucker.

mark: cai is mark and michelle's hero (in the end never turn up)

shaun: (no response)


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poh the smoothie, ian the liverpool fan, greg the distracted, zg the abused by cai too many times, mark the man, shaun the sloth.



jh omitted cos i sent that sms on his behalf. he organise. at my house. ....





i present to you, my friends in a blog post.

quite disappointing la

i thought we were doing pretty well. as friends.
then i got that from you.

dont make me reflect and realign, because i've been doing so well.
i never felt like i wasnt worth a warm smile before.
now i have, and my night was better spent lonely.

someone promised drinks and a catch up, played me out, and it didnt feel quite as poignant as you denying me a friendly hello.



guess you wont be taking that chance with me.

FUCKING HELL

What is the point of facebook when I cant even swear?
my dad's on facebook. so many nice aunties and uncles are on facebook.
and all i NEED TO MOTHERFUCKING RANT IF NOT I'LLKILLMYSELF.



chao fucking cheebye.

dont talk to me.

hydrogen sulphide poisoning of the eyes

H2S, is toxic. initially, u will smell a rotten egg and its a warning.
at 300ppm concentration of the odourless colourless gas in the atmosphere, the smell disappears.



now the question is did it go away because there's no more gas?
or did it shut down your sense of smell?



we breathe we die.

ashton kutcher

just watched the butterfly effect.




shaken.

GMm/R²

INITIATE, and

GRAVYTATE

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

this quote is the one i find hard to look at.
because it is true. i have to work on this.




anyway, on the topic of loneliness, i should be, cos my sister is not in. my parents are in malaysia, my guy friends are in australia for their grad trip, and my sailing friends are at the Top of the Gulf Regatta. the sailors. are zhun zhun the 4 who live near me and i hang out with the most. toh zhen maxi and jwong.


well, my dad told me to know when to lie low and be a gentleman, no need to kick and scream when it is quiet. when its noisy, you'll never remember the quiet days.

sparks

the queens gotta make a choice,

to stay in the castle with her white knight.
or run off for an adventure with the dark prince.