really now.

in less that two weeks time.
im going to begin school.
600/800 of them are girls. 18yo??????
im seriously getting old.

oh btw, to those going SEP will be sorely missed.

another one.

mandy.

NO nothing

feeling kinda dreary, weathers awesome and i cant sleep cos its middle afternoon.
no food, nobody no nothing. only finished up todays soduku which was 4 stars so i took awhile. damn.

here's some pics. from facebook. on a random day at the club. ian, kelly

random

life can be so uplifting with hope.
i am hopeful. i am optimistic.
and when the day happens, i'll be overjoyed.

need to sleep. thanks friends.

luck

let's talk about luck shant we.

right now im like the go-to guy for matters relating to luck.
cos im literally overflowing with luck. trivial luck i call this.

good friends, my own house, going for two holidays in 3 months. nice.



winning at poker $7
winning at mj $42
finding a w880i $350
playing lan for free even after i tried to be honest and asked them if everyone paid?
(i won all my games that day, too)
ordering a $7.40 maccers meal, paying $10 for it. and receiving $8 in change?
(dont worry i told the staff)

my luck is really bursting through the roof man.
i challenge anyone to scissors paper stone. confirm win until you'd have to sell your pants to me.

so since we're at the topic of luck. and luck supposedly goes both ways. we will talk about bad luck. the not so fun side of this game. my luck is definitely running out. so this post will not be the reason why my luck turns around as of today.

we were playing dota when greg didnt manage to get a kill and he said "no luck"
in my head i was like "no boots" cos we didnt run fast enough to catch the "lucky dude". see how u can view things? perspective mate. $500 for a boots and that kills yours.

okay but luck for me happens in a cyclical manner. periods of obscenely good luck. followed by periods where i wanna slash my wrists and jump out of my window and see what the autopsy says i died of. so my point is. luck is always a factor. but always think of ways to put yourself in those favourable positions.

eg.i can say that greg would definitely have had better luck then if he had his boots of speed on.
but i cant say i put myself at a mahjong table or at a table at spize and expect such a windfall right. so thats luck. i cant replicate that shit.

another useful thing with luck is. when you have good luck, milk it.
when you have bad luck, just go home and sleep. thats good skill.

but but. dont ever blame bad luck. cos luck, like your friends, judges you. dont abuse them. if not they will forsake you. be good to your luck. as with your friends. and u'd find that u'd have both more often than not. cheers to luck.


if i should be so lucky, luckyluckylucky.

a good day. whoopee!

started of with cage soccer. always fun and good workout.
then coaching the lasers with the national team.
sailing abit with them always gets me pumped.

then mahjong omg.
i won 42 bucks from mahjong.
thats a lot considering we only played 20/40.
and i havent been playing alot. it was really good though i felt bad for toh and chin cos they lost quite a fair bit. i was thinking when they win olympic medal they sure wont treat me. so it was like zhen and chin have a 1/3 chance each of going to beijing olympics, and toh is still trying to qualify.
and i think its damn cool.

oh yeah and van lim is on the cover of fhm for august 2007. so i bought the mag and so happened she came down to simpang for supper with us. she was kinda tipsy so i just read the magazine with her sprawled there half naked whilst the real person sat across the table from me. apparently very intoxicated. it was absolutely amusing. and funny. i rather see her in the magazine than in the flesh.
i love random shit.


so yeah. now its late and im tired and going to bed.
with the nice rainy weather cooling things down.
its a pleasure to lie in bed and breathe the fresh air.

happiness:-)

congrats to calvin.

my buddy in the army who got married yday.
youngest guy in my platoon at 21.
it was beautiful man.


without my current problems with this sorta thing.
it really put a smile on my face.
like how incredulous the whole thing was to me,
but how it was so natural and so happy for them.
i will learn and get there. i promise.

ohhh -yeah

Once is never enough
Never is never was
Here and now is all that counts
Here and now in large amounts
Be beautiful but shut up
The going can be real tough

You can keep your fancy bars
Clubby friends and fast cars
And when the going gets hard
You can eat your credit cards
I really tried to fight it
But what the hell I like it

There is always room at the top
Dont let them tell you there is not
Made in england born and bred
An eighteenth century brain
In a twenty first century head

Room at the top -- so eighteenth century
Room at the top -- so eighteenth century
Room at the top
Theres always room

If some of this fits some of you
Or like the things that you might do
Its the pleasure and the pain
That makes us do it all again
They say
Be beautiful and shut up
The going can be real tough

love

uknow why love is so amazing?
cos it totally eludes me.

sisterly love?
brotherly love?
parental love?
girlfriend love?

what is that?
answers please.
this is unfair when everyones got what i aint got.
shouldnt have sold my soul.
thats probably what i'd have told the 12 year old me if i had the chance

slightly off centre

the construction work being done to the house below mine is driving me nuts.
the drilling sound feels like its drilling my head more than anything else.
holy shit.

its so bad and so intrusive im beginning to go mad.
cant think straight. really feel like jumping outta my window now.

seriously, the blog name isnt important if u dont fucking blog

this post is for mok huiqi nicole.

the slutbag who pangseh-ed me.
owes me dinner.
and kept me hungry.

u suck. but i still wanna go out with you.

wow really?

holy holy holy
i cant believe it.
today was the boringest day ever.
but amidst the boredom. everything was happening around me. not directly to me.

marriage?
unlikely people hooking up.
really now?
this world is waaaay to happening for me.

more pictures

the amanda lin on the tagboard is this one. yes. the face DAMN CHEEKY.
if you ever wanna know this girl, this photo will be sufficient introduction.
resume photo also can. 1 part cheeky 1 part naughty is she.

caryns birthday photo. all the sailors. the quality abit shag eh?

a kinda good thing

uknow guys, its been this shit and that shit.
i suddenly thought about one of my friends.
and realise that it really isnt that hard to be squeaky clean.

its all good with some of you people.
and i hope u guys realise that.




happy post everyone. go buy your 5mil lottery tickets.

u know u're lucky when u're in between the two best friends.

a nice pic from berns party.
made greater by the random glam chick in the background.

random post party photo. i think everyone looks pretty decent here.

the amandas, kwek and lin. who are probably more similar than they know.

i think this is a nice pic.
and as days go. we'll look back and smile.

不知不觉, 后知后觉

爱像一阵风 吹完它就走

这样的节奏 谁都无可奈何

没有你以后 我灵魂失控

黑云在降落 我被它拖著走


静静悄悄默默离开

陷入了危险边缘 baby

我的世界已狂风暴雨


爱情来的太快就像龙卷风

离不开暴风圈 来不及逃

我不能再想 我不能再想

我不 我不 我不能

爱情走的太快就像龙卷风

不能承受 我已无处可躲

我不要再想 我不要再想

我不 我不 我不要再想你


不知不觉 你已经离开我

不知不觉 我跟了这节奏

后知后觉 又过了一个秋

后知后觉 我该好好生活

i cant put up a title and its past my bedtime.
hate being frivolous about my blogging.


anyways. just wanna say,
on sunday, i was a good samaritan. a tired one.
i pushed this idiots mitsobitchshi for about 30 metres around a bend and through a light. obviously he was a sucker and an ingrate. but at least i convenienced alot of road users cos he was blocking the lane which turns into my street. i thought his engine died. or worse, his battery.but no.
he ran out of petrol. what a fucker man. ran out of petrol. in singapore.
i wanna go tell him mister. i push your car cos i need exercise. and your car fucking small i push with one hand. i push your car cos i wanna help other people not get into accident with you idiot. i push your car because i hand itchy need to push something. not because i see u deserve my help k uncle? u dont deserve shit.
im sweating for you and what u say?

"can you help my go buy petrol?"
"can i borrow your bike?"
"can u use your hand to wipe off the dust on my car?"

guess which one i made up. still.
i hope he buy loads of petrol next time. and drive it into a fire so the petrol is put to good use. good night people. this is one helluva morbid and evil post.
and i know u're loving it.

under my umbrella

been generally recovering from a heavy bout of the illness known to come in packages. flu, cough cold fever and the shits. decided not to see a doctor so obviously its been pretty tough. shoulders still aching now for some weird reason(imhopingitsnotdengue) but my mind's clear and my nose is drying up.

for some strange reason i wished upon a shooting star last night, for my health. not world peace, not hot sex. but good health. damn im getting old.
yes i really did see one flash across the sky.

mom doesnt know, sis doesnt know. basically noone knows. its cool. living by oneself should be like this. lotsa veggies and water for me now.

as a consequence i didnt work on thurs and fri last week. which doesnt make me feel too good. but oh well when the sky falls on your head nobody gives a shit about your job.

its kinda like my last week of internship coming up, so will be nice to enjoy the rest of my holidays. sailing. by myself. and maybe putting on some muscle around the right places.

i've never been more disillusioned. its really hard to discern between disillusion and revelation, similar to how the line between genius and retard is very fine.
but well im sure u wouldnt disagree that retard is much closer to genius than being average.

this paragraph thing really isnt working well is it?

but yea anyway, everyones at lee's party so its a quiet saturday night. federer and nadal final will be good. marion bartoli is my newfound inspiration. guess watching tennis is my way of passing time since i cant really do much.

and by not being able to do much involves watching vjc win another national title on the water for the 9th consecutive year. albeit with alot of controversy and luck. i was there for the 2nd and 3rd year so we've come pretty far havent we?
and also involves playing soccer for 2 hours at the cage nursing a runny nose and aching body. did i tell you im sick? did i tell you im mildly retarded as well? yes? okay moving on.

having a chat today over lunch with dawn chris and zhiwei was good. i especially liked the calming effect smth dawn said about us at 35 earning in excess of 100k a year being real possibilities. very calming indeed. but owning your own house still seems pretty tough doesnt it? think a 15k a month job suits me a lil better. well, as the catchy song goes: listen as the day unfolds, challenge what the future holds.

oh uknow i was talking about disillusion right? yes i know it sounds so vague. so let me tell you what it is all about. its about relationships of course. the one i have with myself is pretty good. the ones i have with my fleeting acquaintances are good. the rest, basically stink. kinda makes me a lonely person doesnt it? well most definitely. im lonely. lonely in a dr house type of lonely. lonely in a smash my walking stick into your shin kinda lonely. but yeah its cool. relationships have once again totally eluded me. and my logical and rational brain has been baffled once again. but yeah i'll pick my moments shant i? lonely is God's way of telling my i can be better. in some way i have yet to figure out. hey least im trying k.

so anyway, hope everyones had a good weekend, no deaths or mishaps in your lives. in good health and in good spirits. havent dropped any screws like i have. my house is basically like an auto repair shop now. goodnight to you. and thanks for visiting my blog every once inawhile. you come you go. and then we die.

hello?

i just wanna watch a movie.







please?

human bean

i am happy to see today.


in order of appearance.

courtney, anne, hongzhuang, yuteng, greg, amanda, claire, kelly, nicole, liwen, edith, ian, mark, zhiguang, nick, nardev and my sis.

8 days every week.



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yeah there was luke too, but i wasnt so happy to see him. made me $120 bucks poorer.
MOTHER FUCKER. why do i call you luke. damn zhencang. hur.

it times like these

when i think, the whole world has absolutely gotta be kidding me.








sorry i cant convey the gravity of the situation here. its not too drama, nor is it something i can brush off.
but really, you all gotta be kidding me.

hopes and expectations

with a night out partying like the last one,
there's absolutely no impetus to keep on going.
it was supposed to be the start of the clubbing season,
but now, its the end.

i spent $43 on covers alone.
wont really know if this feelings is right, but the rest of july will answer that question. i just slept from 7am to 5pm.
damn tempted to take leave tmr but i wont, im gonna leave early. 14th july.


sorry i didnt help make things better. it was kinda of a helpless night actually.
who the hell spends so much and the same set of songs twice at different places?