bloody mambo dj

dear mambo dj,

u fucking slut. u think teasing very funny is it?
4am playing summer rain.
you try that again im gonna throw my shoe over the counter

love,
cai.

come on. for once

i cant wait.
tonights vesak mambo is gonna be topsy turvy cos all the girls have to pay.

u read it here first.
i wanna go see all the sad faces later.

yes im morbid
after all the free nights.



is that why they're the fairer sex?

its so obvious..

im naming my next boat, HOPE.

missing details.

see post below.
i forgot to tell you about the funniest shit ever.

we were crystal jade dinnering right.
then my food came first.
and she kindly asked me to tuck in without waiting.
i gently refused.
and she said

"enjoy your meal sir"

HAHAHAHHAHA. OMG WTF THATS THE FUNNIEST SHIT EVER.
well trained indeed.
she's aircrew lah.

time can take its toll on the best of us

well, i guess im easily satisfied.

but pool with ian b.
and command and conquer of ian b on my left and ian t on my right.
then me and ian t had an hours worth of tennis which really tired me out.
then dinner at east coast hawker which the food didnt come.

was really enjoyable. worthy of a holiday day.

so natasha msged me and we went for food and drinks at holland v.
we both frigging stay at bedok and she wanna go to holland v.
oh btw, dodgy bits. i met her at the club. mutual friend. and she's not even close to that friend. haha.. damn funny.
oh well. okay fast forward to walas.

we were just chilling and talking.
and nat's best friend kenneth was just talking about how hot chloe was.(one of two singers). she was alright lah the plain and sweet type. so anyway she dedicated a song to me which was so nice. i was just sitting there lah. so yeah thanks.
for the record the song was "i just wanna grow old with you". kinda sweet huh.
yeah so nat was really good company and i loosened up pretty fast over some stella artois and started sprouting shit after awhile.
haha. oh well.


Disclaimer: THIS IS not AN EMO POST.. thank you.

results

well well dont ask me about my results ok?
i didnt do too fantastic and my score dropped for the first time ever.

got lower than expected for everything except finance.
kinda reflective cos i've been a real finance boy recently.
learning about trading and shit.


anyway, its as big a deal as it is right? no more no less.
life goes on. squash with nancy and clement later.

last nights dota was better.
3 wins out of 3. bounty hunter first time play also not bads.

uknow what'd i'd like to be good at?
LIFE.

Worlds' Deadliest Catch

live from Ikean Ocean.
Disclaimer: No Ian were hurt or damaged in the filming. He's now home safely with his family.

dont be insecure please

if you think u are so important to warrant a blog post.
then maybe its you im blogging about.

but if u're unsure, dont be unsure AND insecure ok?

its probably not you.

so hopefully next time i choose to blog about someone in a vague manner.
and u feel its you.
probably havent been too angelic lately have you?
and no my world doesnt revolve around you.


advice to myself.

tale of two cities

okay done!

thinking and reading about something which has been bugging me for two night running has settled it!
whoopee.
now i wipe my hands off you.

u were a test. and i passed. and for that im a better person.
no need any follow up action.

the mere act of trying is akin to running into walls.
i should just focus on being a better person. and a better friend.

just got back from gregs place where we watched pirates2. now i gotta watch pirates 3. damn. lets see who was there. isaac ian poh shaun jh jason cai and the host. cheryl cheryl carolyn . woo. most popular letter of the alphabet today was C!.

results are out in 9 hours. hang tight sweethearts. love you all.

we'll make heaven a place on earth

been hanging with ian mich and manda alot lately.
we had a total blast yday photo whoring at ikea then the pic of the day will be up soon. its called "worlds' deadliest catch" hahaha.
so anyway

i've been zouking alot lately and am totally poor now
49.11 to my name and no savings to draw from i really hope someone saves me thanks.

so yday whilst chilling at liat starbucks waiting for ian to arrive. i got introduced to angus. totally chill guy. reminds me of the twins ray and shaun.
and his friends mingting and jordan were chill too.

mark mandalin nic liwen were all there.

then after zouk where liverpool lost the champions league final.
(they lost it, milan didnt win it)
we went to spize where i spent my supper half dead a table away from dawn yang.
didnt really take a good look though.

im gonna start work soon woohoo.
haha later people im alone and hungry, anyone wanna save me? thanks.

first time ever

dissent in the ranks

for the first time ever, i felt like changing my blog name.

www.loaded-services.blogspot.com

oh please. somebody stop me.

quickfire blog post 1-2 sucker punch.

its kinda interesting. how u've not dont anything bad to me.

but just observing how things have panned out.
u've irritated the shit out of me.
through others flaws and your slick indirect perpetration, a nice person can really be seen in a not-so-nice way.



truth be told. if guys werent like this, it wouldve been a lot simpler.
damn you variety. damn you uniqueness. you cause a hell load of annoyance.

sorry noone can figure out this post.

sorry i stress

i'm blogging about dota.
and some reference to real life.


had a good game yesterday. won all 3 of my games even though i was really tired. 3 hours of sleep after talking to cheryl whilst the sun rose was really good, other than the fact that finding toh tuck road was a real paain. haha. thanks jh for the map hunt.

so anyway somehow i wasnt too nice to my team mates sitting besides me, kinda barking at them to do this and do that. greg timely gave me a slap by saying "cai recently u damn stress"

on like 0.00000273 seconds worth of reflection, i kinda figured it is pretty true. i'm not stressed, i'm just on tenterhooks. everything is tense and tight and margins are small. and somemore i particularly dislike losing. more than usual so it all clumps together into one big hairball.

i guess more coffee and smokes will cool me down. but considering i really havent touched a smoke this week despite some severe social pangs. i think i'm trying. luckily mark and john are fighting it too so i have company. coffee is good but im really poor this month thanks to ahem driving lessons. JUNE COME QUICK.

so yah. gotta chill abit. and find a damn job. later mates.

an epiphany!

maybe i'm right, maybe i'm wrong.
wont ever know. but i hope it'll help me deal with life abit.

read this if you wanna know why guys marry younger girls.
and why guys marry post 25 years.
(the large population k. if you're <25 and happily hitched, YOU'RE NOT FUCKING NORMAL)

first you start off absolutely clueless.
then u start getting clues and u think its fucking awesome
1.then girls start getting picky.
and u just aint mature enough.

2.they start looking for older guys. duh. gulf in maturity

3.18-20yo, guys catch up, but they're in NS catching up. wasted

4. 20-23(as far as i know) guys start getting stable. younger girls are the trend. then they get emo.
cos last time nobody want. now got people want, they dont know how to react. the same aged girls have all moved on with their 30 year old bfs.

5. 25 and beyond! finally they're totally stable emotionally and mentally. maybe not financially yet. they may choose younger, older or whatever, but they're ready.


as i typed this, i thought, maybe my problem is how i articulate my thoughts.
maybe, it isnt a problem. its just cai.

finally blogger cleaned up its act, nice and fresh=]

well, little updates here and there.
been going to zouk on wednesdays.
applying for jobs.
my tennis has been pretty decent. although my forehand cross court should start appearing soon.

yeah okay but what i really wanna say is,
regarding the last post.
what i sow is truly what i reap.

so anyway back to the juicy bits.
cos overseas people like shu and yiew and some random voyeurs read this.
sorry its a lil less juicy cos back home is so small, word gets around really quick.

no girls for now. i'm treading the fine line between being good friends with them and not pushing it further. when i feel like it, i curb it. and hopefully the girls dont push me either. its not that i dont want see. but i want it later. tempt me for all its worth. its true i may succumb. but nobody wins. its a downward spiral of friendship.

girls, you just gotta love them or leave them.

trading stocks.

people people.
there are a few no goes in life.

please remember that life is something which sucks you in.
dont get caught up with whatever u're doing till u forget what YOU yourself want in life.
unless you dont know what you want at all. then eat shit.

dont bitch and whine. for real, cos what u sow what you reap.
if u reap shit, guess what u've been sowing.
luck exists, but please dont say u have bad luck unless u have probability to back you up.


when u're say something, no matter how trivial.
ask yourself why u said this. the specifics. question your inner true motivations.
sometimes they are bad too. sorry to tell you the truth.
give u an example.


usually u say "XXX is a very nice person"
CWG comes along and says "eh you know that fucker XXX damn bastard uknow he did this this this (bitchwhinesulk)"
and you say "yeah lah thats quite true he can be annoying at times"

sucking up to CWG?
putting people down to feel good about yourself?
being myopic about the niceness of XXX?
not realising that a generally nice person can blind you from his other flaws?

however the case, nothing is for certain.
sure cocok up somewhere along the line.

just dont dig a hole too deep for yourself cai.
try your best and leave the rest to fate.

when darkness turns to light it ends tonight

i'm lonely.

just not lonely enough to go through that again.

new photos have arrived!

top to bottom:
friends only=]
i was trying to look thin. for shars amusement
thorn amongst roses.

okay this ones shanghai

top to bottom:
the people i went to shanghai with.
the people working in shanghai we met up with. less anna
me, in case u forgot how i look from my least favourite side

sentosa, shanghai. shiok.

top to bottom:
a massive pileup,
a love of the orange disc
a most picturesque moment

what a day, i say!

was a rainy day wasnt it? the incessant undying rain. the 9th of may.


well everything went bittersweet lah
to sum it up.
go watch NEXT. the new nic cage show.

a nice dinner at liangseah street. shouldve known it was not a normal day when i got full on a medium bowl of beef noodles. shouldve seen it coming.


at phuture, some dude puked on me. yes. imagine the worse. laugh all you want. but it happened in the worse way possible. i was wearing a new white polo ralph tee. roughly know how i feel then? imagine the smell. on me.

and terence successfully pissed me off in my already nasty state. sorry i sent his camera crashing to the ground. he was drunk and didnt know i wasnt good company then. paiseh cos its his birthday. but yea get the picture? me? pissed.

phuture and dancing with the hottest chick on the planet wasnt gonna save my day. uh-uh. what did? mambo. another smashing session up there with the one with claire early this year. this time with bern amandak michelle ian mark. its amazing how fun it can be. looking back. marks gotten quite proficient. and ian usually doesnt come to mambo even though he clearly loves it. eugene lau, u werent required. althought he's my mambo guru. the way wasnt gonna go down like that so easily. so im glad it picked up. and we had a smashing time. leaving river valley at 6 with smiles said it all

so so. i forgot to say. cos u ppl are probably thinking im a smelly toot. but greg got me a zouk tee, thanks. and a nice toilet basin wash later. i was smelling neutral, far from great cos no more aramis on me. so yeah. i was clean ok. basket.

i slept at 730, got up at 1030, and here i am. looking back 10 hours ago on the worse phuture experience of my life. and as with everything in my life, it picks up no matter what. so long as i dont dig too deep a whole for myself when im pissed, things always turn out, i think, great=]

god damn blogger why is my template fucked?

hmm.. okay. random post
singapore is too hot.
going zouk tonight.

went for my first driving lesson in 07. booked my test daye aug 28.
sucks cos sch's started by then.

was stuck at the busstop for damn frigging long cos it was raining so hard.
this guy got off the bus into the rain acting damn cool. waiting for his maid to walk across the street and pass him an umbrella. spoilt brat, i thought.
then i realised i was like that before. so i guess its okay lah. nobody wanna waste time getting drenched with strangers.

she passed him the umbrella and he opened it and walked off.
she followed him only after he had crossed the street.
am i very harsh?
but i think thats fucked up.
clearly u dont give two hoots about his maid. its sad.
reminded me when i cried when my final maid left.
least i cared to walk together with them, talk to them.
makes them feel like their time wasnt wasted.

these things somehow are important in my life.

shanghai

hey guys
back from that developing place up north.
nice trip overall.

good food, good company, great shopping.
spent loads and had many laughs.

yeah everyones gonna ask me about this china girl the guys got her number from.
she's a waitress and my parents where there eating too.
i know this sounds very. bgr and very like every other boygirl story. i will prove you wrong. try to understand how im looking at all this. my perspective.

so anyway, after afew missed attempts, we got her out to xintiandi for coffee. and being the nice people we are, got her coffee and chatted, even though the language barrier was pretty big. pleasant looking lah. not hot/pretty/sexy whatever u like.
the whole idea was protraying a nice image of singapore to her. i mean, cant persuade all of them so just start with one. since we got the number already.

i personally think its not very charming to ask for her number and not call back or follow up, irregardless of her looks or your level of interest.

so i sent her back home on a cab on borrowed money from mark. she was friendly to me cos i probably was the only one getting thru to her. so we got off the cab and chatted in the park. in chinese of course. okay to really sum this up right.
i dont like her, but im damn compelled to treat her well. reason?

she's so un-singaporean. im gonna do some singaporean female bashing here. so forgive me and dont banish me to no-sex-land. these people earn peanuts there. literally rural people coming to the big city to work and experience life. everything is an eye-opener for them. a free coffee at starbucks is godsent. being able to chill and meet foreigners is new too. u can literally see the wide-eyed expression like being really impressed or interested. now how often we see that in local girls. too comfortable. nothing impresses them. too busy playing hard to get or putting up fronts that they lose who they are. who are they? nobody even knows now.

perhaps im looking for someone easily pleased. but i think that im looking for someone who is pleased by the simple things like a cup of coffee. and someone who has spent her life finding how she is different from the common girl. she likes shopping and listening to music, and her mp3 player dropped in her toiletbowl.
and the fact that she likes horrendous music like fishleong and pan wei bo and isnt afraid to share it with everyone is just, charming. girls over here just, different.

as u can tell im having trouble putting a finger on it. but i guess being in singapore means we dont have rural girls. and everyone has lost that simple innocence which is so uplifting. i guess this girl, jianhua, was a breath of fresh air. and its helped me see abit better. how all this while staying in one place can make a person myopic. and your perfect life, is out there waiting. settling for less, is not an option.

damn blogger

the template is screwed up i cant blog properly