term break

okay terms breaks over.
been a very good one except academically.
better do something about it this week.

i think i might have to settle for silver on my ippt this saturday.
shall spend more time in the library this week.


had a really good time in general. but saturday really took the cake.
class was forgettable, but my group mates kept me laughing throough lunch.
sentosa was great cos the weather and company was good.
followed by another bought of hysterical laughter at bbq with the sailors.
then MJ with a series of bizarre occurances to top it all off.

hope all of you had a good week. its gonna be quiet till next saturday.
take care and i miss those whom i've not seen recently.

just a thought

guess i'll just be strong.

for us all.

blogger works!

sorry i couldnt blog cos blogger denied me access to posting for a good 4 days.

parents were home last week so things have gotten much better in general.
i would say things are OK.


hope you guys like the song and the slideshow, i for one love the song.
happy birthday to ian tan. it was quite a fun birthday celeb. now i know what was missing everytime we all went out as a group of 7 guys. 7 girls. haha. everyones so much nicer, so cordial. so. sweet. awww...

anyways, i lost 16 bucks at mahjong to caryn lim of all people. but hey, luck goes around man. i'd consider myself extremely lucky already. no complaints.

short and fragmented. i'll post again soon.
watch this space.

=]

phwarr

damn photogenic. cannot take it.
you made me realise, in a good way, that girls are girls, nomatter how they look or behave.

stop torturing young princesses. i know they're future competition.

they said look retarded. i score.

small margins.

hi again.

few things to say.
my fragmented mind will spew a fragmented post today.
extreme physical tiredness and post-sleep me is still gonna get through this blog post.


first up. congrats to markseow. my man.

happy birthday on tuesday to carolyn goh, deniselim and chan yong ann.

calvin my kr buddy. thanks for the awesome tennis game. playing mirror tennis should be up on my list of favourite activities.

zhiguang for organising badminton +ppgou, causing me to pull right hamstring and my right shoulder. it was fun! in the most competitive way. followed by a good relaxing/fun chat in the pool and AMK hub. dont know where the hell he bring us.

my folks are back. im not talking to sis, im talking much more to her bf, and a spattering of words with my dad. they kinda waited for me to wake up instead of proceeding with dinner
so i reckon somebody wants to talk.

went to vivo with rachel for lunch after class on saturday. i think i like her company just as much as she likes mine. i had a blast, err. just talking. i tell everyone everything. im mr fulldiscolosure. even if its embarassing or offending.

i got a blog post from one of my older friends dating back to jc. since im anonymous, she shall remain anon on mine too. anyway, she's turning out to be a much better person than i expected. to be honest. in terms of everything. so im totally glad for her. perhaps when we were having dinner and desserts and between words, i did ask myself which part of her would i not want to date. i found none, but strangely i visualised us together and still see the same problem i did when we were going out few years ago. the "idunno" problem. i dont see anything wrong, she didnt do anything wrong. and im still clueless. nonetheless, i'm happy for her new life.

tennis, badminton, gym, soccer. i should not play too many games from now. im seriously hitting another peak of physical fitness. someone should make me study harder. next few weeks are KEY. dont sweat the small stuff. i'm seriously reborn i tell you. have a good week people. looking forward to the term break.

shoutouts to ling, sueann, ianbaey, mandy and liwen.

to all my friends who read this blog

sorry.

to all my friends who read this blog

and thank you.

in limbo

sometimes we get stuck.
like i feel now.
i dont have enough time to go do anything worthwhile. but i have an hour to burn before i leave for school. so i spend this hour moping in limbo.

i think my tennis game is back. clement kang beware!!. haha. beat wu 6-1 6-1 yday. but i reckon he's getting a lil too old to hang with me. duh im 23 and he's almost 60?? respect to the man man. nonetheless. tennis is a game where i can only master my side of the court. hence i felt good about all aspects of my game. didnt go to the net very much but groundstrokes wise it felt really good.


suddenly i think of frisbee. dammit havent touched that disc since bali. very bad.
im gonna abruptly end this post. thinking of all my friends on exchange right now.

like humans do

thanks to good friends.
good tobacco companies.
and many other things.


sometimes i am blind to things which should have been apparent.
well, i hope it doesnt happen to me so much. regretting isnt my facourite pastime.
hope you do well.
i'm taking 2 steps back with regards to all my friends now.
but they're still important to me. unbelievably so.
thanks for phone calls, coffees, suppers and laughs.

when i was 23, these kept me going.

a few cm

almost ended today.
almost.


bloody car, wanna kill me at a zebra crossing.
i was cursing my luck, why never die there and then.
then i realised. God has eyes. TIAN YOU YAN.



getting hit by a car is quite style, but getting hit at a ZEBRA CROSSING.
imagine my tombstone. "HERE LIES CAI, WHO WAS KNOCKED OVER AT A ZEBRA CROSSING"
two things. i will laugh and come back from the dead, or the angels bringing my across to the promised land will laugh out loud in my face i will fall into the river styx and forever be banished with shaun tan yu xun(styx)

revirginized

greg made a damn good point.
where is my i passed my driving post?? gone.

passing my driving and completing the gruelling IA presentation was, mere distractions which came along. hardly a happy story.




sidenote: i am thinking of quitting sailing for good and start on doing endurance races. marathons, bis tris and ironmans.

excerpts from a dad to his son

"My position is that you grow up and take responsibility or else I micro manage you like a child. I appear that it’s time to do that."

this ones quite special, a threat and execution immediately. might as well dont threaten right.
i also didnt know that children can be parallel to a computer game. i know children are small. but u didnt have to say MICRO manage right. couldve skipped that word. now i feel small. sadness. i kept thinking of denying and harassing in dota.




"Every Friday evening, you will send me a request to fund the following weeks (Monday to Sunday) expenses."

he's such a sweety isnt he, daddy. he tells me which day the week starts and ends at. it slips my mind how conscientious he is sometimes.
every friday evening im also damn free. stay at home and type email.




"I will make Weijun overall in charge of getting the desired results, ie. A clean house. You will contribute your effort and she will testify to me (with an email copied to you) by Friday every week that you have done so to her satisfaction."

this one is the part i was telling you guys about below. my sis is the OIC yo! thats like a coveted postion if you see her response. she said she'll PULL UP HER SOCKS. haha.
'TESTIFY, till the day i die'. reminds me of the Kanye West song. makes me wanna jump up and dance.
to her satisfaction too. now i have to satisfy her. and him. and she'll testify to that. i should be a songwriter. hahahhaa. fuck i started out super pissed. now im laughing out loud in my room. steam.
can u imagine how NICE i'll be to her on thursday and friday?? i might even blow have my budget buying ger gifts. maybe she'll tax me? hold me ransom? all the delicious possibilities.




whoever taught me not to air my dirty laundry wasnt a good teacher.
anybody wanna hire my dad for a day? award winning one. loving and charming too.

there is no taboo

ok got work to do. shall try to be quick eh
but i must talk to you.

have this mega presentation tmr. hopefully it goes well.
suit and all gonna be super overdressed in sch man. lucky its 9am.
been working on it for the past 4 days. school on a sunday? fab.

domestic problem time of the year.
mom and dad wanna go their own way.
i wanna go on my own way too. can i divorce my family?
absolute crap man.
sister should just get out of my face.
she sends messy house photos to my dad and asks me if i still care about her.
when i say no she gets emo, calls my dad and cries. gimme a break.
i get emo. i cry. life goes on man. i cried on the bus ride to school today. how fucked up is that? least i dont share the burden by complaining to my already loaded parents. i just confide in ling and aunty maureen sometimes. im sure our parents got the excess capacity to stop fighting amongst themselves and worry about your little problems. come on. if u're an adult, u'd know when to gripe and who to gripe to.

now thanks to her brilliant work. dad wants my budget to be contingent on her satisfaction. COME ON. fall apart now world. ask yourself. which of you would agree to having your brother or sister having veto powers over YOUR money? i vehemently disagree with this arrangement.

its 2nd sept and i have no $$ to live. its cool. cos living under duress from this kind of threats is not considered living. i will somehow survive and move on. but if push comes to the shove, im finishing school on bursary or loan. im taking my sleeping bag out. im taking my savings moving on with my life.

my dad says the word DRASTIC. my sis uses the word DRASTIC.
i say : BRING IT. i wanna see what you can do to shock me. this stony core of mine awaits your drastic action.


i've been listening to the same song for 3 days.

debbie cai

i dont know you anymore