what the fog.

hello everybody, im back from the dead.
sorry for being away for so long. cant help it that the camp was tiring.
very engaging and always have stuff to do.
press conference and contrast baths being the more interesing stuff.

paiseh ok?

okay so some updates for those who are so nice as to pop down to check on cai once in awhile. whenever the finger itches.

asian games simulation event was great. the individuals there really make it a great organisation to be part of. the aussies can really get the job done well. logan, robinson and sanders mainly haha.
i finished third. $62500 prize money. not too shabby eh? lol
really left my work behind this week and luckily om test this morning went well. now i just have to catch up on my projects and studies.
sitting next to peggy now in the library. catch u all soon. ciao.

PS: shes so hot!

subservient

what should one do,

when one doesnt know how to do,

what one doesnt know how to do?

prison break

thanks to officer mahone, i think utah is the coolest city ever.

yoo-tah!.

the way he says it is so cool.

they're headed to yoo-tah!


he's probably as cool as scofield, just ugly.

education

schools so boring, we come out with ways to amuse ourselves.


cai: i like you.

erwin: i like me too.

cai: ahh fuck. (outmanoeuvred)

cai: i hate you.

erwin: its okay, i like me enough for the both of us.

cai proceeds to beat erwin up.

like a knock to the head

i've lived for 22 years.

and i know how one's mindset is very important.
thus i have 22 years of experience in using which mindset for which scenario in life.
the number of mindsets i am able to put myself under. quite a number.
today, as i have another bout of self-doubt and insecurity,
i realise, that i should lose all the mindsets i use to survive the world.
and use all the mindsets i have which will make me a success story.

i'll use the power of the mind.

omgawd who killed kelly?

i got a post on colins blog.
omg. how gay is that?

somemore say i can go doha instead of him.
4.7 is youth class lah dey.
and the way i sailed in the radial selections, im ashamed of myself still.

but colin rapes ass.
its true. its not pitiful.

okay gimme some time.
its not whether, but when.
for everything i conceive.

my goal is to be the 4th boy in tap.
im 22. still a boy. not a man.
no self imposed restrictions of being a man
never.

Many Supplementary questions

this post is dedicated to rebecca kang.
slightly intellectually gifted individual from bizad

thanks you for saving my butt
i must be more hardworking from here.
do all my supplementary question.
and i must also learnt to spell better.

a way of life

have a dollar and not be afraid to lose it. wisdom vs frivolity.

have great confidence in oneself and be prepared to have nothing.

sleep and be ready to die.

bring reflection and banish regret. thats for old people.

too many ideas dilute the content, i feel.




sorry for all those clueless. looking at the sea makes me have a private conversation with myself.

carved in stone

im definitely afraid.
of commitment.

i got an sms today, when i asked a friend about a movie.
kinda slipped my mind about it cos i was at a wedding and the company was great.

she replied "imagine you and me"

i totally freaked out. stun.
3 secs i realise its the name of the movie i just asked her about.

during those 3 secs. i realised im scared shitless.

for my 22nd, give me love, give me companionship. give me happiness.
and maybe. someone to teach me how to be less afraid. i scare myself.