kinda like a slap in the face.

coming here to read something


only to have nothing at all.

kinda like a slap in the face.

coming here to read something


only to have nothing at all.

ah hehhhh

OKAYY..... WOOHOO YATAA.A...


my com just died on me. laptop has been down forever.

guess this is where my angpow moneys gonna go huh.



side note: i dont care. do as u wish. i will be overjoyed for you still.
tr: get well.

jinxed.

"Look again at that dot. That's here. That's home. That's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader," every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there - on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam.

...It has been said that astronomy is a humbling and character-building experience. There is perhaps no better demonstration of the folly of human conceits than this distant image of our tiny world. To me, it underscores our responsibility to deal more kindly with one another, and to preserve and cherish the pale blue dot, the only home we've ever known."


-astronomer Sagen

hm.

blogging about lame jokes in class has to be a good thing.
it indicates the lack of anything neutral or bad to say.


anyway. whilst i was brushing my teeth i figured smthg out.

for guys. u work so damn hard. give the chick this and that. and when u finally kiss her. i hope it answers all of life's mysteries. well. for me. it began off as "what now" and soon it progressed to "oh fuck". u get my drift.

when i kissed her it was more like "that was easy", but it didnt end there. i immediately told myself. life's not easy. life's about alot of good moments and bad moments added together. so i skipped the "what now" and "oh fuck" and moved on to "lets see what she needs".

and right there. someone shouldve stopped me and screamed epiphany. because that was the difference. course. dont bother asking your man. you're sitting on his lap. lips red and plumped. he's not gonna tell you the truth. but if im lucky. i'll experience that again.

happenings in kelas Bahasa Indonesia

Ibu Susan was teaching us the numbers.

satu, dua, tiga, empat limah tujoh enam delapan sembilan sepuloh.

100 is seratus
1000 is seribu
and she taught us what one million was as well. fine and dandy.

ibu:"kelas, you know why we need to know the big numbers?"

kelas:"because of the money in indonesia"

ibu:"yes, everyone in indonesia can be millionaire"

andy(hisrealnameusedtonotprotecthisidentity):
"so issit then in indonesia they dont play who wants to be a millionaire?"


from there i burst out laughing like one freaking idiot.
this cock actually had the balls to say that in class. cb i know u're not laughing. but this was in class. and the timing couldnt have been better to perk up my miserable day spent sleeping in tutorials. helpp

who is victoria, and what is her secret?

guys, girls. if u wanna help me. start inviting me to libraries and not house gatherings okay. i thought we moved on to house drinking parties. but we've merely shifted from dota/clubbing to house gambling.

wed: lost 20 bucks in poker (with a deck of 51 cards knnb)
lost 10 bucks in a random scissors paper stone game. 1 time win all.

thur: vday dont emo so we poker night. won 14 at poker lost 19 at mj.

fri: won 100 at blackjack and 6 at in between.

i'm really sick of gambling already. it devalues the money im working for in future.
all in all. i won 235 in black jack this year and perhaps lost about in every other game i played in. so u can call me jack.

saturday was devoid of work which made me really guilty. watched jumper and spent some time with nancy and sueann. my neighbour invited us to his house for a mini gathering which was awesome. sue ann and nancy are totally my sisters now. they all believe. hahah. slept early instead of did work which is not a bad idea.

i kinda spent the whole of sunday reading and napping. ready for biz policy test tmr. hopefully i wake up. thats probably the hardest part.

finally i get to eat. u know i hardly eat when im alone at home? sian. at least i earned my venture outta my house.

repeat repeat same same

its been a crazy few days.


i wont go into the details.
the only thing sticking in my head.
somehow.


is how nice fiona must be.
and i dont even know her last name.
how random.

the trooth.

i dont need you.


like i've told countless of people.
"its sad. but i wanna be with somebody who wants to be with me"




too bad i made you out to be so damn special.

confession

in november 2007.


i did something very bad.
i will pay for it i know.


maybe one day i'll have the guts to say it out.

pictures.

interestingly.

somebody from the phillipines popped by and saw my blog.
copy and paste somemore onto her blog.
MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY K.

but yeah. she also damn emo.
and her friend commented that it was the deepest sentence she ever heard.
ROFLMAO. "wow.that's like, totally the deepest words i've seen..."
it isnt lah chill. just a emo post about myself.
http://stellardreamingagain.multiply.com/journal/item/23/why_is_no_one_home



anyways. since im not going out yet, was just looking at facebook and all.
and im not being chauvinistic or anything. but the girls my age are so different it scares me. they've got experience and weary-ness written on there faces. its still attractive in a different way. but still its scary. good things the guys are the same. (so i think). lalala.