MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU!!

Now for some cheer.

Lets bring on the celebration/.

Transport in Singapore

My thoughts on the transport system in Singapore.
As a new car owner, freshly graduated from 15 years of MRT and bus commute.

Faults/glitches/technical issues happen. Man arent perfect.
Lets focus on the important things.

1. Customer Service, what is done for the man on the street who is inconvenienced. I sell gas, if I mess up, I make it up to my customer in any way I can. He's a paying customer. No different from the regular commuter on the MRT. In this case, he pays, he waits, he is delayed. Now do something to appease him. This is something which the civil service has failed as compared to the private sector. More frustrating is that the commuter cant just take his business and go elsewhere. This leads to a transport problem becoming a political problem. Why the need?


2. Mr Lui, I understand that you and your team are having a hard time managing the technical issues as well as the media issues post-GE. I can only humbly suggest that your team looks into addressing the reliability and capacity/infrastructure planning on a forward looking basis as opposed to a reactive basis. I am not saying that this has not been done. But I stress that this needs to be done extremely well to meet the people's high expectation. High standard of living necessarily equates to higher expectation. Those affected by the MRT downtime are sure to make noise, but I trust you will spend your best efforts looking well beyond the troubles of today, to ensure that a commuter like me who may someday not have the use of a car, will look forward to his next incident free MRT ride. You are a strategic planner more than a firefighter or scapegoat.

If I may take the liberty of a precautionary word, things are still relatively fine now, but the goodwill built up by our forefathers only last for as long as the people's patience.

Its a Store and More!

i think its time to come clean.

this is my blog and i havent been honest with you.
In the case inaction indeed is an action.
The action of withholding information and not being honest with myself.
To be absolutely frank, I have no clue if this is right or wrong, but the mere fact that I've not told my blog this is sufficient reason for guilt.

It started from University I was sailing less and had much more time on my hands.C(AOB)
lets called the term attached and having a overseas bf(AOB)
went out, never for a second wanted to date her. She told me about her bf occasionally, then it flickered out. Sleeping together can only bring you so far.

Then there was L. She was single, got together for awhile but I was hasty and she wasnt the right one. Breakup wasnt pretty but compared to the rest, this mightve been the best separation I've had.

My memory isnt too good, but the next one should be T. (A)
lets call attached (A).
Never had a clue what was on her mind regarding me. We just hung out, late nights, good times. Went back to her bf shortly, broke up and she's with another guy now.

Graduated, work started, and once the dust settled there was S.(GOB)
S was GOB(Getting over BF). this went down terribly, but at least there was no internal complication. She meant the world to me, She just wasnt that into me.
I hope its not because of this one which led to the below.

Got posted to Malaysia for work, before I left I met C2(ANG)
lets call ANG: Another nice girl. Went magically during the initial phase, came to visit me in Malaysia, and I absolutely lost the plot. Perhaps my impression is that her role is to keep me company, and she failed. I was alone overseas definitely, so no escaping the alone time, but why I took it out on her, I'd never know. Understanding this may be the answer to my redemption. I basically tossed and turned in bed for one night, thinking about everything. And then I was suffering so much just thinking about it I called her to break up with her.

Things dont get better from here. There was T2(AOB). who travelled to Vietnam with me.

Followed by Y(AOB). who i honestly thought really liked me but never for a second considered leaving her bf. this i know for a fact.

Then E(A). who I cant comment really much right now. but lets just say she's alot less interested in me when her relationship wth her bf is fine.



Ok so thats just the summary of facts.
1. Im sure i missed out some people. (sucks to be you)
2. I hit the sack with every single one of them. some i enjoyed, some i live to regret.
3. Cept for L and C2, i dont know if they really liked me. But more importantly they're happy now, with their other halves.
4. Until now I have no idea if I played or I truly liked any of them. Or if I was abused as a child and lacked parental love and manifest myself in this way.
5. the purpose of this email is to vomit everything out in hope of facing my deepset insecurities and failures and somehow move forward.
6. This list is from 2007-2011. On an average of 2 a year i suppose.

stacko

thoughts from a very normal looking Friday afternoon.

So i went to help a friend move her dog, let's call him U, from her mom's place back to hers.
At her mom's place, this dog had company, another dog of the opposite sex, S.
and they had this friendship for six months.

Just prior to separation. U had refused to get into the bag, somehow knowing of the impending situation, and started making life difficult, S, also had to be put into solitary confinement. It took time, but the lucky thing with dogs is that they dont physically struggle as much as a kid gone off the train tracks.

I waited in the car as all these unfolded, oblivious to what was happening.
But when the semi-whimpering dog came into the car, along with his distraught mother, something amazing occured to me. It heightened my awareness as a human being, and my brain from that moment on went into overdrive.

The sounds made by U were frightening, frighteningly sad. Im not the biggest animal person, but hearing U shout/squeal/cry, the divide between human and animal shrank instantaneously. The emotions evoked were as though a human friend was being yanked away from the love of his life, and at that moment wouldve given his life away to fight for what was rightfully his. Question now is, how different are humans from animals in the pursuit of Love? Sure U was trying to hump S for months, but isnt it the same carnal feeling humans have? Surely dogs endure similar pain and hurt when separated from their loved ones.

At that moment, the ability to think, the one distinction between Man and Beast did not matter. When it comes to Love, nothing else matters. Except being together. Being Loved. And having the wildest sex available to satisfy those desires of wanting and being.

And then the inevitable epiphanical moment arrived, inspiring my most emotional side to the surface; that when it comes to love, there is no need for thought. love is within us all.

honestly cant rembr whens the last time i went on a date.