impressed.

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

-- Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

newflash

recently,
two girls with no redeeming quality whatsoever cut ties with me.
its a good sign. that im doing something right.




update: i locked myself out of my house today. internship ends on friday woot!

education

i remember how shiok it was to be a p6 kid,
or get into a decent secondary school.
my first day in VJC,
my first moment of OCS.
the day i was selected as so and so. of the so and so team.
i visualise them. perfectly. distinctly and clearly.

but when i graduate from NUS. it wouldnt even register in my mind.
i feel no sense of achievement. no sense of joy.
because what uni has thought me.

is that our lives have already begun. and the part where we stop learning via a spoon and start converting little trophies into major successes. is here and now.
maybe its made me older. but its time to win less trophies. and start winning happiness. my very own.

aging and maturing is the process during which we talk less about others and think more of ourselves.

thereby reducing the pain we cause by judging people. and increasing our self worth by taking care of our fragile selves.


observed by talking less. looking more serious, getting more wrinkly and saying the right things more often.

just be normal

im gonna be frank here.

i wish people would not give other people credit for their life experiences.
there is no excuse for being a lesser person.
when the areas become grey, the weak see black. the slightly less myopic see white.


i really dont care if ur mom or dad died
u have 3 children to raise and u're the eldest kid and took on more responsibility blahblahblah. i dont care if you were abused by your boyfriend or had a difficult childhood. worse, i dont care if u're poor and cant afford to eat at a decent restaurant once a month.
so people who are like this. put a lid on it.
people who have friends like this. stop defending them. people like you create the pity they feel comfortable in and where they find acceptance in life.


move on. be kind be magnanimous. you are not your past. you are the sum of all the good things in your life. shame on you if all u can remember are the bad ones. welcome to the real world of ups and downs. be who u wanna see. be the change in the world you wanna see. stop wallowing. stop finding excuses for bad behaviour. excuses are like strings on fire. they burn out eventually.

im not saying be me. im not saying be perfect. im not perfect.
but what im saying is. i wanna see you. not the scarred pitiful peace of shit.
the person u can be. u came here to be. and the person you wanna be.
please. if i wanna see sad broken and self-deprecating, i see it whenever i fight myself. i dont share it with the world because its not me. the real me is capable of making the people around me happy.


if the whole world judges you because of some bad ass shit u did.
or some shit some bad ass did to you.
come to me. because im your shot at redemption.
i cant judge. i see the best in you.
so come to me. dont screw up. and be whoever u can be.
the person u knew yesterday isnt the person he is today.
we just assume he is because we need to.

guys.

relationship: just love her.

marriage: just stay with her.

the tsunade chronicles

i really dont know what else to say about shanghai while im still living it.
will probably summarise in a mths time wehn im back.
meanwhile, alls well here except im broke.
cos HR hasnt paid me.
i've been here for frigging 40 days.
lucky im from singapore so im supposed to be good with forced saving.



the main post: tsunade changed clothes but smells funky still.
whoopee. i miss some people.