the sun never sets on these eyes.

i'm not playing any more mahjong till new years eve.
i lost 20 bucks last night. or rather, this morning cos we played till 7am.

all in all i think i wont about 80 over bucks.
lost alot of sleep. alot of retarded unglam moments from me.
saying fucking lame stuff because mahjong is a slow and painful game.
its become mindless and brainless. silly me used to think old people played mj cos it stimulated their brains. if mj is stimulating, im not growing old. fuck that shit.

SHOUTOUT!

to greg. in the states.
to shaun. in hongkong.
to ian. in some random location in europe. vienna prague paris u choose.
to zhiguang. in gb very long no see.
to adel. in west france. france is already in the west.
to ian teh² miah and co. in europe.
to nancy peggy ivan and co. in europe.

ahhh nbcb. everyone in europe. fuck you all la come back i miss you greatly.

hopes and dreams

as we approach the end of 07.


my dreams and aspirations are a little clearer.
my mind is a little firmer. which makes me older as well.
children have the benefit of an open mind,
when it comes to things their minds havent been tainted with.
unfortunately as we grow older,
that childlike innocence fades in exchange for the irresistable urge for fame and fortune. putting food on the table, is one of those urges.


someone asked me, what do i want for xmas.
it popped into my head really quick.
=i want a nice house to live in.
we're moving out soon. so in terms of location, view, amenities and etc. i hope its good. not only for me, but my family as well.

what do i want for 08.
=to graduate with decent grades, outstanding skills in getting to know people, making a difference out of my life using this year.

what do i want in general?
happyness=] this will be my guiding principle in life.

bloody quick can.

i've said it before and i say it again.

this blog title is the most apt ever.
if people never left, i'd never need to blog.

romeo and juliet

its time to pull the close ones close.

the gradually ease away some others.
i no longer have the urge to befriend the whole world


at 23, i might have seen enough.

think thank thought.

im fine the way things are.
the way life gives u signs whether u're ready for something or not.
and life having given me the fortitude to accept those facts and not force the issue.


its just that change in inevitable.
and perhaps change must be created by something painful.
so yeah. im still the same. but as the pain pangs a little more tonight.
the screws on my head get a little tighter.

a change might be on the cards
inevitably painful. in fact the change might not be painful.
but the signs which signal a need for change are painful.
slow injections of morphine can only dull it temporarily.
in the end the process of life is so inevitable.
like a ball of snow, tumbling down a mountain.



whats truly beautiful about life, are the inherent motivations which guide our actions and judgement. based on the survival of humans as a race, and as individuals.
because people dont change. their motivations do. and life changes us by altering our motivations. and what can you do. if the motivations are strong enough, as they usually are, we continue tumbling.

rumble jumble mumble.

twogether forever.

ehhhhhh.
sorry havent been posing.
i've been busy seeping.

went to see and got myself a tan.
but the salt water hurts my huge ulcers.

chiangmai trip has been cancelled in place of shopping for house.
zouk later and im damn lethargy.

im hungry. free to meat up anybody?

built to last.

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.