its bed time and im up.
it could only be 1 reason

ShZazz

i finally realised why.

that it was the right thing to do.
this was like, more than 7 months ago i think.

that it was always gonna be the most terrible thing in the world.
holding someone who was in a loveless relationship.
because when it ends, i'll be thought of as the person to offer comfort and encouragement.
but i'll be thinking of the words you said when u were intoxicated

the words i held on to for too long.




note to self: making the right decision does not have to feel right (or wrong) at that point in time.

so take a look at me now.


im just an empty space.

sigh

I finally realised the problem.

why there's been this sense of impending doom, causing me to take things out on people and life in general.

dammit,
at this rate, i have to hang my racket up. cos my right elbow is getting older than the rest of me.
i've always had a free flowing backhand. and as it got better, it got lazier too. and with all the crap stunts i pulled with that shot trying to make federer look like a recreation player, i have to either hang up my racket or switch to a double handed shot. either ways, tennis just isnt the same anymore.

how not to be sad, when you've lost a limb, a soulmate, or a stroke?

what a nice trip to sebana this weekend it was.

my parents, mark's parents, mark mich greg and shimin were down for a weekend of sun sea and seafood. we had the usual adventures only expected of such a trip, with engines blowing and rickety bridges once again.

pictures speak much better than i do, so they'll be up soon here.



its without a doubt, that anybody who picks me would have to put up with that kinda life.

OH GOD.

PLEASE


TAKE A HINT ALREADY.

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should've posted this as the very first post of this blog. about 6 years ago.



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