everyone asks for help. no one wanna change.

sayang ya.

life oh life. it showed me a house, not far from the city, with misty cool air and no air con required. looking outside the windows, i thought i saw a scene out of starship troopers, but actually it was genting, lit up like a spaceship. beautiful and stunning are words that come to mine.

beyond that, a very interesting trip to a customer.

and a sobering lesson, by a girl who has taught me a great lesson, but i did something to her which i might never forgive her for. her answer really traumatises me to this second.

and topped it off with tennis. there's a 16 year old there who is better than me. so life has just taken a good turn.

but when i read that i knew i part of you had died.

its not my place its not my place its not my place

quality is a personal endeavour

it struck me, quite like the proverbial lightning bolt.

that as much as i have a preference for broader issues, and my fellow mans journey.
there are others who dont really give a damn.
to empathise with others, and learn from their lessons, is my worthwhile pursuit.
but some would choose to stick to their guns, having gotten them this 'far'
to tide them through their years.

2 weeks have past since ive been here.

bit by bit time has past. and loneliness is slow turning into pensiveness.
and that has also morphed into clarity. so compartmentalising this 6 month period im away.
there are going to be a few take aways. im definitely certain it wont be enough to cure my ennui.
but least i know my life will have taken a step in the right direction. tough decisions nonetheless. but it has to start. and then i'd have more credibility when i say world leaders need to make tough decisions

im sure they'll be clubbing and all that shit. but there has to be more. and more there will be. for a start. im going to break the company record for the JP morgan run. god knows what the timing is, but im gonna break it. the current record holder is a girl. but according due respect im starting training now. cos the runs in may. all the best to me.
i've just recovered from a 2 day fever and sore neck/shoulders from dehydration and too much cold air at night in hotel rooms. so pray i dont fall ill again and a sub 25 5.6 km is the goal. army-ish times and will require army-ish discipline.
i will succeed with singaporean-ish fervour in multi-tasking partying/training.

for a start.

east coast but it just isnt the same.

guess i cant force people to entertain me.

i've realised(the hard way), that everyone's lives trudges on.
and even tho mine feels like its come to a standstill, it is somehow moving along, in a different way.

so i've gotta get a move on too. hope my friends are doing well. and I make the best out of this trip to malaysia. there's definitely plenty here. but having no one to go out with, makes it less plenty.

my dependence on my friends back home, and the internet, is super exacerbated.

KL... oh KL.

tmr im going to the bukit raja site. work has been okay. life is getting better after i've resigned my internetless@home fate.

bought a few dvds which im already addicted to.
so i'll be occupied till im bored and then i'll have to head to KL or somewhere during the evenings. bit more of a singapore life eh..

the management trainees here remind me of the hongkong ones in shanghai. all talk alot and talk about kiddy things, not that i mind tho. work time everyones so serious and they treat me real serious cos somehow im real serious too. seriously.
maybe singapore kids are different. but maybe its just me.

hope things pick up!