i'd rather have you.


fuck all the adjectives

snoitcelfer||reflections

i made it this far.



and today it finally hit me, that some people didnt.
born 20 days apart. but need we necessarily complete this journey together?
we'd all love for the chance to. and im glad mine still goes on.

guess i'll take the time off to recollect and reflect.
hopefully someones loss can provide me clarity.
nothing lasts forever. not even diamonds born in the rough.


happy birthday.

can u believe i quit this? now i can

balls

playing singles as a hobby,

playing doubles professionally.




wont that be nice

some nice songs.

if u want them,

everything- michael buble

other side of the world- kt tunstall

cupids chokehold- gym class heroes

wait for you- elliot yamin

cold inside, she wants to be like the water.

a week ago



recently, i've been seriously affected by some comments.
seriouslywhatshappenin.


i cant help it im single and looking. i didnt choose that for myself.
im not gonna settle for less and ask alot of whoever i choose.
and btw they're not repealing 377A for me.
its cool.

what really hurts is the honesty and earnest shown when people give me those comments. its said with all the best intentions and hope. on top of the fact that i already know it, everyone i meet, new or old, is reminding me. if my parents start on my case, im pretty sure i'll crack and fall for some cleaner aunty in NUS.
give me some time please, i dont wanna hurt or get hurt. she's stashed away somewhere. im not falling into the proximity trap.

must focus what im here to do. thats keeping my faith strong.

yu ling.

here's a bit of my heart,

with which im willing to part.

to keep you warm,

while we're far apart.


wahhhh.. macham girlfriend ah. nancy happy not?
add points? hahaha. hope u are well.
and u're right i frigging miss your mom and dad and drinking sessions.

copenhagen better be good to you.

random thought for u guys to neuro analyse

guys have subliminal skills.

girls have subliminal power.




perhaps its this male dominated world we live in, and gods way of providing balance, that as guys proficiency with physics and emotional disbalance increases, that the opposite sex gains an equal and dissimilar power, which more than keeps them on par with guys, at least on par.

the good the bad and anything that falls between

uknow there are a few teachers which really make an impact on your life?
i had a few. in primary school there was alice lim.
sadly in vs and vj there werent, not to discount the value of my time there it was still awesome.
but now in NUS this prof jay is turning out to be another one.


he teaches negotiation and he tells us:
u deserve better, dont let anyone tell you otherwise.
if you dont ask, you will not receive.

he teaches heuristics and what he says is in effect:
dont let you fool yourself.
know how u're fooling yourself.



okay seriously. this is the most brilliant way to teach a class.
if every teacher was like him i'd be an academic.

stacy's mom, has got it going on.

i think it was a compliment. it sounded pretty complimentary.
i dont hear those every day, thats for sure.
i havent heard anyone say it, even in a year.

anyway, its time to treat people around me better.
like the people i interact with on a daily basis.
who's nice to me, whos not. its obvious.
i better start being nicer to those who are nice to me.
had this convo with ping today. determine the keepers baby.
the rest can continue playing their peripheral roles.


on another note, i never understood why i used to hear girls say they'd rather be guys. always attributed it to pms and what nots. i was wrong.
they say older men are this, older men are that. clearly there's smth about older men. and im starting to understand why. cos there's definitely alot less in older women than older men. not everyones a lisa ang and vivian tan. or maggie q or nicole kidman if u like the internationals.


girls roles in society is still important as ever, we wont have functioning families or homes without them. as for men, even if they grow better with age, they still got shitloads more to focus on than just "getting better"

WHO A?

will be studying the entire day away today. quite badly underprepared for tmrs IA quiz. on monday might need counselling. we'll see.






on another note. i dont know why i give the player vibe. i better lose it fast.
i'm single and not lying.

guess im just afraid to be left on the shelf next to the lead-laden china toys.

part 3

super prens.

8th oct 1984 part 2

the chwee kueh, the chillers, and the cameraman.

8th oct. 1984

the usual suspects, the cake, and the cake.

happy birthday

i tried to post pictures but i failed.

Central Ideas

now in 6th floor hiding and not studying cos im tired

thought there was tut from 4-6 but obviously i wasnt listening in lecture yesterday
damn waste of time.
ping went home to sleep, enjoying her post midterm bliss.
isaac and mand are learning how to french together from 6-8.
ian is coming over for dinner soon so i hope he hurries.
he was the first person to reach for my birthday so kudos to tt.

im sick of reading about value stocks and growth stocks.
block trades and the DAMN FRENCH FARMER MODEL.
why is everything french now.
french lessons, french fries, french kiss, french model, french trench also have.



this is one hell of a random post from me.
signing off. 645 pm. tick tock.

w-o-w

-birthday post-

all i can say is thanks.
thanks to the groups of friends.
thanks to the individual within all of you who smsed, called, came.
its half an hour past my birthdate but im gonna say that my 23rd birthday is gonna be in my head for a long while.

i wont go into specifics.
but lets just end it by saying i am blown away.
hope to have many of these in future.
since im older and wiser i shall use it to be a better person and better son, brother, friend, classmate, regardless of my role.


you know who you are. thanks. pics will be up soon. the whole lot will be on facebook.

for the 12 year old in me.

nothing you confess, can make me love you less.

unless, you say you turned les.

and between her and me,

she's the best.

this ones for you aquarium girl

its pretty much a blast from the past.

but it suddenly came to me. that night, when i was slung over a railing listening to you air your unhappiness and my inadequacies, my hand was shaking and my heart was pounding. the inevitability of the situation.

i asked you if this was really what you want. and you said yes.

i'd loved to have gone down kicking and screaming, but it really isnt my style.

having seen this happen to so many of my men and colleagues, i saw myself as a victim of the inevitable. i was in the environment where being alone was the norm, and being with someone was a rarity. so i dealt with it.


like you said, there's always a way to deal with anything.

small girls dont cry

mand/: you look like a retard cai.


THANKS. i was just conversing with god with my alcohol infused brain

searching for, settling for

nothing happiness less